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Hey guys!!
I'll try to explain whats happening to see if anyone can relate and just relax a bit that I'm not crazy.
I've been in therapy for 6 months now. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and later on with BPD.
When I first started therapy I couldn't remember my mom in my childhood. Pretty much till the age of 13 I had no memories of my mother and then from that age on, my memories were shouting and screaming and fights all the time. She was emotionally abusing me and that was the only thing that I was sure about.
Two and a half weeks ago, an event occurred and my therapist says it must have triggered me. From that evening I started having the same nightmare. I'm very little and my mother HUGE and she is shouting at me, calling me names and I'm trying to speak but no voice comes out of my mouth. It disturbs me so much that I wake up crying and shaking. I also started not taking my night medication so I wont fall asleep (that works fine most of the nights).
Two days after the event I started having flashbacks. Apparently my mom was physically abusing me as well. It feels like I'm living a second life and every new flashback, scares me more than the previous.
I lost every ounce of concentration. I hit my car on the wall, I go to the supermarket and forget what I went there for, it seems that every time I'm in the car, I get on "auto pilot" and don't even remember how I manage to get to my destination.
I'm also very cold with my mom. I talk back to her (something that I never did before) and I can't stand it when she is standing close to me. Plus I isolate myself from all my friends.
My therapist referred me to my psychiatrist who will see me on Wednesday. She refuses to make a diagnosis until the doc will see me, but from what I read, I'm concerned it might be PTSD.
Can PTSD comes after 10+ years of when the trauma happened?
I'll try to explain whats happening to see if anyone can relate and just relax a bit that I'm not crazy.
I've been in therapy for 6 months now. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and later on with BPD.
When I first started therapy I couldn't remember my mom in my childhood. Pretty much till the age of 13 I had no memories of my mother and then from that age on, my memories were shouting and screaming and fights all the time. She was emotionally abusing me and that was the only thing that I was sure about.
Two and a half weeks ago, an event occurred and my therapist says it must have triggered me. From that evening I started having the same nightmare. I'm very little and my mother HUGE and she is shouting at me, calling me names and I'm trying to speak but no voice comes out of my mouth. It disturbs me so much that I wake up crying and shaking. I also started not taking my night medication so I wont fall asleep (that works fine most of the nights).
Two days after the event I started having flashbacks. Apparently my mom was physically abusing me as well. It feels like I'm living a second life and every new flashback, scares me more than the previous.
I lost every ounce of concentration. I hit my car on the wall, I go to the supermarket and forget what I went there for, it seems that every time I'm in the car, I get on "auto pilot" and don't even remember how I manage to get to my destination.
I'm also very cold with my mom. I talk back to her (something that I never did before) and I can't stand it when she is standing close to me. Plus I isolate myself from all my friends.
My therapist referred me to my psychiatrist who will see me on Wednesday. She refuses to make a diagnosis until the doc will see me, but from what I read, I'm concerned it might be PTSD.
Can PTSD comes after 10+ years of when the trauma happened?
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