An Aha Moment

[Hope4Now]

I am laughing at/with myself right now. It has just occurred to me, at 51 years old, that I can do whatever the hell I want to do. I don't have to kill myself to be free. I can go camping instead. And toast marshmallows and eat as much chocolate as I want. I am free. I have choices.

This...this is what my one part that I like so much has been trying to tell me. Not to run AWAY. Just to be free.

Wow. I...all of me...is having a very good moment right now. And I am grateful for that.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

Hold onto this moment for as long as you can and maybe right it down somewhere that you can see it often- at least the "I am free." part. This was wonderful to read.

 

[illusionist]

It is such a good feeling isn't it!....enjoy!

 

[Teasel]

I can do what I want too. But I don't...

 

[Hope4Now]

I can do what I want too. But I don't...

:roflmao::roflmao::roflmao: Yeah. What's up with that? We CAN but we DON'T.
Maybe this is what my Mr. Famous Psychiatrist meant when he told me on Monday that I am living in my trauma. Hmmm.

 

[Deleted member 28942]

I love the aha moments! Congratulations! Ride the wave for as long as you can!

 

[shimmerz]

Not to run AWAY. Just to be free.

I never.ever.thought.of.that. You are right. It is just free.... Standing on top of a slide, looking down at all the kids.....seeing it, hearing it, feeling it, smelling it, breathing it.

Just BeeHappy! :hug::D:cool:

 

[The Albatross]

We can but we don't with ease or without difficulty. Hard to defeat the hardwiring, the thinking patterns, the behaviors, the habits. Be gentle with yourself.

 

[Suzetig]

This is so true and yet so easily forgotten - thanks for the reminder.

 

[The Albatross]

I can do ... But I don't...

The only way through is, over, around either side, under. or straight through. Berlinda, I had to ask myself why I would not do for myself as I would do for others and bust procrastination.

 

[Friday]

Point 0:50 or so :D

 

[Deleted member 20280]

I can do, And I do do. :)