Structural Dissociation - Psychotic 'part'

[scout86]

But then, that could be the psychosis talking.

ROTFL! I kind of wish you were coming along on tomorrow's road trip. One more crazy person could only add to the excitement!

 

[Hope4Now]

Did you actually see my whacked out diary posts? Honey. :blackeye:

uh, yeah. I did. They're not whacked out. That's your analytical/ANP part judging. :)

Am not. Do not. I have no adult resources. Besides the car. Even that I can't drive where I want to. :banghead::banghead::banghead:

So please suggest....if I were to take a day trip, you know, just drive somewhere to the states or something to visit someone, do you actually feel like I could pull that off without going ballistic? Really?

Um, yes. I do. Well, maybe you'd go ballistic, but you'd get there. I actually do believe that. I think your confidence in yourself and what you can do has been profoundly eroded. I think you need to do more stuff...reasonable stuff...(hah...that's the catch) to regain some confidence in your not insignificant abilities.

I fell asleep with a comforting piece of wood last night.

:wideeyed: I woke up sucking my thumb with my "blankie" today. Realized that my summer quilt is the same sort of cotton that my blankie was. Went into instant panic. Self-soothing behavior was NOT acceptable in the least. :shifty::oops::confused::wacky:

I tied the piece of wood to my hand so I didn't even have to actively hold it...it was just there for me. OMG, don't tell anyone I just said that...

:roflmao::roflmao::roflmao: I'll never tell! (I have comfort wood too. And rocks. 2 rocks live on my bedside table...they are from different beaches and revealed themselves to me at key times. The wood I have...well, I have lots because I compulsively collect driftwood...but this one piece I found around a month ago and it is really cool and reminds me of a good beach moment). I'll have to try tying them or taping them as I am forever losing them under the covers. I love that we are all into these weirdnesses! I love that you said it out loud! Now I don't have to feel like a freak anymore. Thanks! :)

This is where it gets really confusing to me. Because given the 'THENNOW' of flashbacks and parts and so on - I know it is based in a reality - just not necessarily proper 'time'. Does that make it psychotic? That to me doesn't feel psychotic.

I think this is the difference between psychotic and not..or between run-of-the-mill psychotic and dissociative psychoses. If "psychotic" is reality but not in proper time, then I am psychotic pretty much dozens of times a day. In and out. But I don't think it is the same. I think it's a part taking over executive control and that is really, really different.

CERTAIN that someone was upstairs .... like a presence. I would say most psychiatrists would say that was psychotic.

Okay. Um. Then I have been psychotic. But not. No. And there are "presences" and presences. Things imagined and things based on past real experiences. And then there are the presences that a lot of people call "woo woo" stuff. But they're real too.

wood triggers the crap out of me.

It does? Why? OMG...no more campfires!!!

but I said, "If you'll pardon the expression 'part of me'....." I thought he was going to fall off his chair laughing.

:roflmao::roflmao::roflmao::roflmao::roflmao::roflmao::roflmao:. I love this @scout86! Your t and mine ought to get together for a cocktail and commiserate about their refractory clients who have such a hard time with this parts thing. How many times I've held up my fingers in the "quotes" sign when I say, "A part of me says..." and how many times I have rolled my eyes in frustration when he says, "That sounds like a part talking." :wtf::yuck::mad::confused::eek::wacky::wideeyed:

He'd enjoy you Shim, I'm quite sure.

Yep. I think most anyone with a heart and a sense of humor would!!!

I kind of wish you were coming along on tomorrow's road trip.

Can we all go on a road trip and start a commune together or something? Please? Please...I love you guys. I need people like you in my 3D life.

What would happen if we had a convening in some central place. With all parts (:laugh:). And wood. And cars. And s'mores. And blankies and teddies. And taking care of each other. And lots of laughing. And weirdness. And silliness. This notion is going to keep me smiling all night long. I think there would be some damned good healing that would occur. Anybody up for it?

 

[Chava]

Self-soothing behavior was NOT acceptable in the least.

self-soothing terrifies me. I'm able to hold a stuffed animal in therapy but there were many meltdown tears in just getting to that point...I wanted the stuffed animal but had so many horrible feelings. My piece of wood is neutral. Nobody counts on a piece of wood for comfort. There was no judgment. So sometimes I can pull it off. Any of this is better than the comfort of cutting, or laying down in an over-heated car, or in the dirt beside a dumpster for comfort. Baby steps. I think all the self-destructive things I've done have helped me be pretty open and non-judgmental (like sleeping a knife for comfort is not weird...but sleeping with a piece of wood is even nicer I suppose).

 

[shimmerz]

What would happen if we had a convening in some central place. With all parts :)laugh:). And wood. And cars. And s'mores. And blankies and teddies. And taking care of each other. And lots of laughing. And weirdness. And silliness. This notion is going to keep me smiling all night long. I think there would be some damned good healing that would occur. Anybody up for it?

I'm in. I just need to formally request a chauffeur.

@scout. I wanna come with you! :arghh;:arghh;:arghh;

 

[Hope4Now]

I'm in. I just need to formally request a chauffeur.

That could be arranged.

 

[shimmerz]

That could be arranged.

IN! ALL IN! I'M THERE!

You da MAN Hope! :p:D:playful:

 

[Hope4Now]

So where are we gonna go? I mean, hey, I almost drove to Detroit instead of East last week...I'll go anywhere.

 

[shimmerz]

I almost drove to Detroit instead of East last week...I'll go anywhere.

I say due West. There's a lot of land to cover in that direction. A lot of friends to meet. @scout needs help tomorrow. :rolleyes:

 

[Hope4Now]

I'll be in Wisconsin for a few weeks in early September...it's not exactly WEST (although it is for me!)...Who knows what could happen from there.

 

[shimmerz]

I kind of wish you were coming along on tomorrow's road trip.

I do too.... :-(

 

[shimmerz]

it's not exactly WEST (although it is for me!)...

Jesus Murphy, just about anything is West for you, so that isn't hard to do. I am thinking January, Florida!

 

[Hope4Now]

I am thinking January, Florida!

Wait, Shimmerz...that's EAST!!!! You do need a chauffeur! :roflmao::roflmao::roflmao: