Angry

[MrsBeasley86]

I'm so mad at what happened to me when I was younger.
I'm mad that my abusers get to walk around and live life like nothing happened.
I'm mad that I'm the one who has to suffer for what they did. Because of them, I'm psychologically stunted. I have to take meds and go to therapy to feel somewhat normal. And then my meds quit working...and I'm back to the beginning. I'm tired of this. I hate anxiety, depression, and depersonalization. I shouldn't be going through this. Because I have a life to live.
But until I get 'back to normal' I'm stuck.

 

[Truthful_Whispers]

I completely understand. I have carried a lifetime of anger toward my abuser. He died of cancer long ago, so I can exact no retribution.

 

[MrsBeasley86]

I just hate that people can do harm to someone, and then live their life with no consequences. What they did to me was bad enough...but I also have to suffer a mental illness.... :(

 

[Truthful_Whispers]

I just hate that people can do harm to someone, and then live their life with no consequences. What t...

I know. Physical wounds heal, but emotional wounds can last for a lifetime.

 

[Saint Nik]

I have carried a lifetime of anger toward my abuser. He died of cancer

My mum was my abuser and she too died of cancer. I thought relief would have came after her death. But it never did :( I still feel like :poop: And I too wish I can stop hating her, takes a lot of commitment hating someone! So exhausting!

 

[Truthful_Whispers]

My mum was my abuser and she too died of cancer. I thought relief would have came after her death. But...

Hating abusers is very easy for me, but yes, at the same time, it is very emotionally draining. It is best to forgive and let go. But, as James T. Kirk said in Star Trek V:

 

[Saint Nik]

let go

Powerful stuff @Whispering_Truth I understand that, when he said " I can't let go of my pain. IT'S MY PAIN!" Yep. . .relate well! Thanks for sharing.

 

[Truthful_Whispers]

Powerful stuff @Whispering_Truth I understand that, when he said " I can't let go o...

It's one of my favorite movie scenes, and very descriptive of how I personally feel.

 

[Saint Nik]

It's one of my favorite movie scenes, and very descriptive of how I personally feel.

Wouldn't it be great if life was just like the movies? Take Good Will Hunting for example, imagine if you did just cry to your T and then all of a sudden. . .you are 'okay' you become this fully functioning adult again! If only!

 

[MessyMind]

I'm so mad at what happened to me when I was younger.
I'm mad that my abusers get to walk around an...

I feel the same way, why should i have to suffer when he's the one that did something wrong why am i the one paying for his sins