Can't Seem To Eat...

[Born to Run]

Maybe it is about setting boundaries and ignoring what you don't like. You don't need to defend yourself for everything. If you have no eating disorder then period. Ignore the people that upset you, stay away from drama don't look for it as you have enough of that in your head already.

 

[digger]

I don't have an eating disorder, my eating though does become disordered at times, especially in times of extra stress, depression, or tiredness. I had some fears around food after a prolonged bout of gastric illness, but mostly my eating stuff comes down to lack of appetite and forgetting to eat.

Once I notice it, I have to get pretty strict and organised about it for a bit and I do the alarm thing. I set alarms on my phone and aim for small and frequent, making sure I have plenty of really quick and easy to prepare stuff, or pre-prepared stuff in. Flapjack, fruit salad, yogurts, nuts etc

I find if I don't do that and I have to think about preparing stuff as well then the alarm thing ends up being useless, because if it's going to take time to prepare, I'll end up putting it off and then forgetting about it again!

 

[lostforgottensoul]

You don't need to defend yourself for everything.

All great advise! Thanks! I think having Borderline (something i forgot about being on a site manily about PTSD) i tend to want everyone to like me (not that i care if they agree with me) but if people dont accept me then in my BPD head i internalize that into "im bad" or "im a horrible person". Im learning how to stop that so thank you for that!

stay away from drama don't look for it as you have enough of that in your head already.

Right! Completely agree! Its why my therapist had me back away from my family. Look up drama in the dictonary and their pictures would be there!

I know the truth and im not forcing anyone to read or reply to my threads! I do want replies but damn! Stop assuming shit about me! I think some need to look at their own issues!

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I don't have an eating disorder, my eating though does become disordered at times, especially in times of...

Yeah, i like the alarm thing! Def gonna do that!

Thank you for your reply. At least in not alone in this. Do you find it helps to try to lower stress? I havent seen ive been able to just simply because i'll totally forget until late night. Maybe if i have an alarm and not want to eat i can try some stress/anxiety/trigger etc reducing sfuff?

I just took the biggest step ive taken ever in 7 yrs a week ago and i think its set off a storm of emotions & thoughts in me; new emotions & just a lot of new stuff and its made me feel very unsteady. My defenses that kept me 'ok' in the world has been taken down...at least some of them and im left w/ feeling extremely unsteady and just a ton of new stuff. I think thats made it a lot worse.

Def going to set an alarm on my phone! Thank you for the help!

 

[Deleted member 20978]

Hey Soul -- Please don't read this as advice, because it's not (I'll clarify that). Also no one think I'm commenting on anyone else's comments, I was thinking of this reply before seeing the contentiousness here.

Reason this isn't advice is, I am not suggesting you could apply it in any specific way right now. But for the future -- I think part of reason you can't retain blood/cell hydration is because of overall issues with not simply nutrition but general health, long arc of detoxing, opioids, gall bladder, and food vs. supplements. Partly I'm saying, it's complicated. But for instance, without fully thriving microflora (who do thrive best on whole foods with emphasis on plants), you won't have enough enzymes and transmitters, won't break things down and absorb into the gut lining as well, things like this. (Apples really are good).

In the long run, in the future, hopefully this will improve. I think actually your choosing Boost and such is not a bad approach, as it is low effort and as you say contains some important nutrients pre-digested. But it's also made of like palm oil and sugar and crap, so as I think you get, is not ideal. It's a step. (For me lately, ramen noodles is in this ballpark. It is technically calories, but not great).

Hippocrates's second most famous line is to let food be thy medicine. He was so incredibly correct, it pisses me off all the docs we have now who take the hypocritical oath but don't know a damn thing about nutrition. Ultimately pills, supplements, and all of it is not really food, though it can keep you alive.

So baby food, then work from there. And Alba gives good advice about hydrating and moving away from the synthetic food as you're able. (Sorry Alba, just agreeing). When I see thoughts like adding more meds to counter the existing meds, I recoil myself, even as I understand the paradigm. A doctor a day keeps the apples away is one way to look at it.

Just to say, I regularly end up at McDs and drop as much as I could spend on a really healthy meal on some carbon sticks, reconstituted pink slime with ammonia, corn syrup, and battery acid. I know I shouldn't, but I'm still alive.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

So baby food, then work from there. And Alba gives good advice about hydrating and moving away from the synthetic food as you're able.

Not sure why you say its not advise and yes alba gave good advise about hydration and then jumped directly to assuming i have an eating disorder (which i dont), im too complicated and exhausting, post about one issue at a time, and go hug my dog like eating isnt an important thing. Anyway, moving on, i can ignore too, for a while.

Some of what you said is above my head when it comes to nurtion, i agree boost has sugar and stuff but was my attempt to get some nutrients in me and i dont drink one every day, just the days that i have forgotten to eat or too nausious to, and i always try to take the nausia feeling away w/ the anti nausia med i was given when i was dealing w/ gall stones cause i was throwing up everything i ate, and try to eat before i drink it.

You had mentioned my gall bladder (it was taken out about 2 yrs ago and eventually i started to eat normally, this just started some months ago).

I do know opioids make you dehydrated and it pulls your blood pressure down too and my pain pump is being increased and my oral/patch medications lowered (leveling the pump off slowly) but w/o it i cant walk so i dont have a choice w/ that.

I dont think i quite understood all of what you're saying but the things that will seem to be the best ideas are an alarm to remind myself, get some baby food and maybe some of those foods that Firday and some other posters said.

I dont like apples except one kind (fugi apples, the small light red colored ones) so maybe get some of those. I'll have to keep this all my my bedroom cuz my dad will eat all the apples and will not get why im eating baby food again.

And try to drink more water. Not sure how much more i can drink, i already drink about 4 to 5 bottles of water a day on my days off (its all i drink at home) and maybe 2 to 3 on work days. 7 seems like a lot but can try.

Most days though i can down bottle after bottle & im still dehydrated (and i take the same amt of meds every day). That for some reason tends to follow my sleep (waking up from nightmares about 5 times a night); on the days that i didnt get much sleep, just seems im more dehydrated. Not sure if its related, just seems that way.

Thanks for your reply, though you seem way smarter on nutrion than me. Im not too worried about the surgar intake, my dad's diabetic and b/c i have PCOS im insulin resistant so my blood sugar should be on the high side of normal (130 to 140) and its been low. Some times its ok (110 ish) but then it will dip to 80 or even 50. I know thats from not eating as that happened before i got my gall bladder removed so i also carry sugar pills.

 

[Leah Morgan]

Hugs x

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Hugs x

Thank you! Hugs back! :hug:

 

[ShadowSolace]

From late November to Mid January I struggled with this because i went through a major depressive episode. What I did was ate a small meal when I finally did remember to eat/felt physically up to it and I feel you should do the same BUT you should also set a schedule and stick to it, perhaps set alarms on your phone too. You should also try protein smoothies. (I personally recommend the brands Naked and Boathouse Farms) which is also what I did and they made for good, gentle-on-the gut and tasty meal replacements.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I personally recommend the brands Naked and Boathouse Farms)

I LOVE Naked & Boathouse Farms, just hella expensive. I can afford it tho w/ my dad staying here & worth it as its fruit & want not w/o all the junk. Thanks! I never even thought about them!

What I did was ate a small meal when I finally did remember to eat/felt physically up to it and I feel you should do the same BUT you should also set a schedule and stick to it, perhaps set alarms on your phone too.

Yeah, im def trying to figure out how to set an alarm to go off 3 times a day; the only alarm i have is to wake up so trying to add alarm to do that. Wish there were something it would say on my phone like "time to eat" lol but im sure i'll know why its going off.

Thank you for the help! Its nice to know im not alone! And thank you for reminding me about naked & boathouse farms...totally forgot about them & such a damn good idea!

 

[ShadowSolace]

I LOVE Naked & Boathouse Farms, just hella expensive. I can afford it tho w/ my dad staying h...

You're welcome sweetie! Message me anytime you like

 

[lostforgottensoul]

You're welcome sweetie! Message me anytime you like

:) thanks! :hug: