You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Ronin]

Aww @Rosewater, that was sweet.

When you're upset Lionheart's scenarios aren't happening just when you're ready for them and instead the shoe drops in inconvenient times.

 

[Heather]

When you go to answer a thread, scroll down, can't remember what thread is or what you were going to write.

 

[Ronin]

When some of the most traumatic things in your life were the best time of your life.

When you still can't figure how to translate 'military circles dating betrayals are goddamn different thing' and not having the words for solidarity&treason pisses you off. (How do I sum up family/pack/have-me-for-life... treason/where the f*ck did you leave your honor / why can't I f*cking shoot you for it? / ffs yeah true normally courts would be for it, so I don't have to.... in words that translate to 'breakup' ?)

 

[EveHarrington]

You know you have (highly symptomatic) PTSD when the few and far between days are supposed to give you the drive to live.

I guess that's what I tire of. Always being told that things will get better (if only for a moment) and these are the moments I should cherish. (It feels like an invalidation of my own struggles.)

Makes me want to throw a two year old type temper tantrum, throwing myself on the ground and screaming. But I don't.

 

[Heather]

When you're trying to get things done and it's not going your way. You immediately want to give up.

 

[ladee]

@EveHarrington.. go ahead and throw that tantrum... you will feel better. If I was told that I couldn't feel defeated or impatient for long lasting results to all this hard work... on the floor I would be.... and ya, there are other ways to express yourself... but no one gets to define that for you..... Give yourself permission to validate your feelings... this is what I feel !!! This is how I am going to deal with it.... I'm ok with that !!! Sending you gentle :hug:'s if you accept.

 

[Marie E.]

When your idea of fun is dissociating, laughing and getting drunk off your ass. (Humor!)

You play the disappearing act during trauma anniversaries and play the no show at the mental health center.

Your cat is the only friend you trust.

 

[Ronin]

You don't have a cat, because you trust them.

... Much like with friends, the ones you trust? Another continent's distance preferred, you can't hurt them that way.

 

[EveHarrington]

@EveHarrington.. go ahead and throw that tantrum... you will feel better. If I was told...

I didn't throw myself on the floor, but I did have an episode of sorts. I'm feeling a bit better now. Thanks!

 

[ladee]

Good for you @EveHarrington, we all deserve to have a hissy fit once in awhile... I am human. you are human. This all just gets to be too much on most days.... so happy you are feeling better !!!! And good for not hurting yourself by throwing yourself on the floor !!!:D

 

[ladee]

When you have gone to the store for the past week and a half, to get coffee filters, get home with crap you don't need and couldn't afford , and still no filters. But hey, all the extra paper towel you have works fine for coffee filters.

 

[Heather]

When every little thing under the sun sets you off (not in a good way).