You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Deleted member 28740]

When companions, here, are in many ways closer than family or friends, yet unmet.
When those that you relate to understand in a few words, you. Past and present without the trauma CV.
When you don't have to fill in the dots ……
And when you do fill in the dots no shunning no judgement. Compassion.
Blessed to be understood by strangers

 

[Ronin]

Blessed to be understood by strangers

Strangers are the best companions: understanding loneliness being a stranger brings, and bridging it for however long needed. ;)

 

[Deleted member 19804]

When you realize you need to calculate in at least one extra day for every few days in your study planning, in order to compensate for probable triggers and mental break-downs.

 

[Anrish]

When you want to read others members' diaries so you can keep up with what happend to them..and you cannot focus...the lines get blurry...and you feel useless as a friend.

 

[Lionheart]

When strangers make you extremely nervous and restless, just because you don't know them yet.
*(I have lots of all or nothing thinking going on when it comes to strangers, it's a "they are either for me or against me", sort of thing).

 

[Ronin]

..and you cannot focus.

See? Just a reading issue. Not you being a bad friend, you're a good friend: going to check up on your friends even when dead tired and experiencing difficulty.

 

[Ocean5]

Cake issue is the slum lord stove. It spikes cycles heat. So raw inside and burnt out. No matter how you try to adjust the temp.

Do you have a large pressure cooker, or can borrow one? Can bake in that I believe.

 

[Sandstone]

Even your horoscope won't let you sit peacefully in avoidance
"You may try to ignore an inner voice telling you to take life more seriously these days. Perhaps you already decided it isn't worth fighting the inevitable. Additionally, you might believe that everything will run its course and you won't have to work so hard if only you could let go. But you can't change a sombre disposition overnight if there are valid reasons for your feelings. Be patient with your emotional journey. The sooner you acknowledge that life isn't all sunshine and roses the sooner you will find yourself back on the road to joy. "

All you other Leos - get on with it!

 

[Heather]

When you find out that NOTHING is going to happen to your daughter's abuser and you immediately want to slam your car head on into a tree.

 

[Ronin]

and you immediately want to slam your car head on into a tree.

That little piece of shit isn't worth your life.

You and your daughter are.

That little miracle needs her mommy, so no leaving, please.

(But get it all too well. Suicidal rage and I are old pals, but that doesn't mean it's not an enemy, still.)

 

[Heather]

(But get it all too well. Suicidal rage and I are old pals, but that doesn't mean it's not an enemy, still.)

I didn't know anger/rage like this could exist.

 

[Ronin]

@Heather, I'm sorry you had to learn.

Smaller bits, okay? Watch your breath, let it rise and fade for a while, wait for the anger to lessen even if you get jittery as f*ck afterwards, be careful of your moves, smaller moves and minding not getting injured are better moves.

Don't engage in activities that could get you killed if you have that option (driving, working with heavy machines, et cetera) while in that shape. Wait for things to be less sharp, more calm. May take a few hours, but it will pass.