5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[corvidae]

1: the good mental health workers all go away eventually, so why do i get so attached to them?
2: having insight means i actually need to apply it and not just talk about it.
3: why is that so hard?
4: sleep
5: grapes

 

[UnKnown-Self]

Rage yoga, grief yoga, this yoga, that yoga, I'm wondering what the differences are. Are you screaming like a platoon sergeant during rage yoga? Do you wear an arm band with a picture of the one you lost during grief yoga? Maybe they get you in such a painful position in rage yoga you start screaming at the instructor about what a sadistic bitch she is and during grief yoga they use soothing positions....

Hiding is what we do best. We hide from ourselves so no matter where we go that feeling goes with us. Wanting to hide, and I do so often want want to hide, is just your "self" saying time to work kiddo.

I take Adderol most days and it helps with my symptom that looks like ADHD because I have PTSD.

:hug: @Cashew what does trigger us so thoughts of our abusers/traumas seemingly start from nowhere? Working on awareness might help. For me that's difficult because I am so cut off from my feeling.

 

[Crow]

1. It's difficult to breath.
2. I'm lucky.
3. At least one person cares about me.
4. Never want to talk to my family again.
5. Wish Black Orphan was released as an entire season instead of one episode at a time.

 

[Marie E.]

Trying to remain open.
I talked to my father.
Come on therapy!
Trying to have future tense.
I am trying to cope!!

 

[UnKnown-Self]

@CrowFeather - many people care about you. I do and so many others on this forum do. Blood ties are difficult and just have us in this role that is usually an unhealthy one for us. Break free and fly!

I have to read more and post less

Avoiding calls from one of my sons because he only calls when he needs a pep talk since he is anxious like me. But I'm tapped out and he goes through the motions of attending therapy but never does any real work. I still feel guilty.

Thinking I'm a lazy ass

Need Coffee

 

[Chimera]

I'm thinking...that I am a f*cking rock star to have survived this long, this messed up...that goes double for all of you.
That floaty for me is a reminder to pay attention. I have to acknowledge and own my feelings.
This is all I've got, here, now, but it's not the end.
That my downstairs neighbor seems terribly unhappy and bitter, how sad that is.
I'm going to be ok, eventually. (within my context of ok)

 

[Sandstone]

1. My back hurts
2. I should have got dressed
3. Chicken curry??
4. Why no phone call?
5. I don't think I know any answers

 

[Deleted member 28403]

1. I might be able to go back to functionality a bit
2. My stomach capacity decreased :) Yay
3. I need to get up, and get out and do something
4. This forum has instagram :P
5. Music

 

[Deleted member 29920]

1. Yay, the sun!


2. :woot:
3. :D
4. :cool:
5. :p

 

[Chimera]

@Sandstone
Chicken curry? Absolutely.
I don't have the answers either, but I learning the questions and that is huge for me.

Expletives. I hope they don't offend, sometimes they are my best form of expression (I think there is a post about this)

@Cj77 great images, thank you for sharing.

@Saelben American Dixieland Blues.

I don't know why I am not even trying to create, I have so many tools to do so.

 

[Ronin]

1. Meditating about an Arabic phrase about letting go.
2. Still facepalming how can some melodies bring whole lifetimes back.
3. Keeping it simple. So mindfulness & present-mindedness.
4. I have no idea where I got half of my new wardrobe. Alters stahp. :D
5. Art Comes First.

 

[Ronin]

I am a f*cking rock star to have survived this long, this messed up...

Damn straight. :D