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I have trouble since as long I can remember with this symptom. I keep go on place that trigger my own trauma. Even now I know I'm juste hurting myself by listening and reading about some topics, I just can stop doing it. Why is this so difficult to not traumatize myself again and again ? I...

Ficition always was a safe place for me. My father said as soon I could read I was always being seen a book with me. But with years my reading get more and more dark and violent to the point I'm reaching what I consider the worst things I'm able to find. Also I started writing and my very first...

With moving alone came way too much changes. I'm happy I left my group home, it was the right decision. But I'm still very undecisive about making decision regardless the topic. So I would like to know what other people think about my situation and view the fact I think it's better for me to...

Ok I have a problem right now. It's 3.40am on my planet side and I need to sleep because I have things to do tomorrow and had sleep issues since 4. But I just can't. I don't know what to do I had a great day, having a life victory but I can't let the day ends by going to sleep. I really...

Ok for all my life everything was took in charge by my father who always was extra nice to me never bring on negative aspects of me and let me do mistakes without even mentioning them. Now I'm in an adult life and I always feel like I'm going to die if someone get any annoyed by me or my doing...

So I'm 29 but never lived alone. From the beginning I can't remember a time I was feeling good (or more exactly feeling good while not being dissociated from an important part of myself) and completely cracked after obligatory school while in apprenticeship. So I ended living 24/7 with my father...

Hello I think it would be fun to have a thread about things we enjoy. For me it's video games on my phone. I currently play at harry potter hogwards mystery and pokemon go

Ok I had to spend about 1h with my abuser. I only had to spend about 15 minutes alone with him and he acted normal. Being alone with him was enough to Trigger flash-back. I got the usual symptoms I experience during and after but in another came : wanting to vomit. Does new reaction to...

I start to really want to have a girlfriend. I need having that special kind of person with me. Except the only romantic thing i had was one side love and being sexually abused by my brother. I don't even know what I can handle. Where do I start to work towards having a girlfriend in the future?

I know no one but my abuser knows what's going on in my abuser's head but a bit of talk about how abuser as siblings can react would be good enough to me My story happened this way : We are a family of two parents and three children, my abuser is the oldest and a man and I'm the youngest and...

So I'm not sure if that thing will last more than one day but no reason to not try it I really want to make a paragraph in my first note in French because it's my native language but I'll translate it just after. Maybe writing in another language could be useful in some way Que dire de plus que...

Hi I'm new here. About 10 years ago I went to a family dinner. Derealised a lot and it never stopped since. Since I always be used to dissociation it didn't change my daily life. I'm living like it never happened and how it feels to not be in derealisation completely fade away for me. I still...

Hello I'm a French native speaker so my pseudo is the French name of Glaceon. So I can say I got a dark sense of humor very early because while I've got medical sexual and abandon trauma before 10 I always feel the need to appear normal and my family was a lot into making jokes every possible...