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I don't know why everything is setting me off right now. I'm so weepy. Anniversary of when ex was arrested is not until beginning of May. I just don't get it.

It seems really over the top right now. I just started to cry over something at work and this morning over my just because he said something in a mean way and he was still tired. Ugh

What is dysregulation?

No he doesn't treat me like that usually. He said he didn't even realize he was yelling. I'm not used to emotions you might say. Then some get extreme. I think that was the biggest problem, is not regulating my emotions when they hit. I'm not used to emotions. I was numb for a lot of years...

I have to drive my husband around now because he just had shoulder surgery. We were going to Lowe's at Tulsa hills and he started yelling at me about something I did while driving. I let him go into Lowe's and I just sat in the car and cried the whole time. I felt so worthless. I even had...

I have such mixed feelings about taking the tree down and Christmas and holidays being over. Part of me want to move on to getting back to normal but then part of me doesn't want it to be over. I'm planning on taking my tree down today but even though its not my favorite tree, being a white...

I have been getting this too. Mine comes from violent Christmas in the past because of an ex who is bipolar. I cried about it last night and thought I would be better this morning. But was feeling sad just now. Then I told myself I'm not going to let him ruin another holiday. I used to love...

I don't why I get to feeling like this. I want to love Christmas. I used to. I remember sitting in the dark when I was with Jim and watching the lights on the tree. I'm feeling sad and angry and stressed and idk why. I was excited for Christmas around Thanksgiving but this week I feel like I've...

Thank you everyone. I really needed the feed back today.

I do tend to over think things. Lol this trauma therapy has been a long time coming. I just don't want to mess this up.

I'm here today and just thinking idk whats going on. I have hypoactive thyroid and have been on medication. I messed up and missed some doses I realized this week. Also I've been doing trauma therapy. The kind where you read one of the traumas every day. Well I was doing good and then I started...

Ok I'm not sure where to start. I'll just go. Several times this year I've had a feeling of kind dejavu sort of but its been more about the type of weather. Idk if it makes sense. But when I step outside especially when it is like the first day kind of season. I get this strange feeling of...

It does help to know it's ok to feel like this. I guess I'm angry somewhat that it's happening at all you know. And it being small that I shouldn't make a big deal of it. But its still unsettling. And everyone saying its going to fine. Its nothing. Thats what they said when I had to go for the...

I don't know what is going on. I had to have a biopsy on my breast this morning. Kind of feel like it was pointless. It was about pea sized and they had trouble finding it. They just numbed the area so no anesthesia but for some reason I'm feeling kind of aggravated/angry. I won't know results...

Thanks

@joeylittle I'm sorry I didn't respond sooner. I guess my notifications email went to spam. Talking with my T it was probably the emotional flashback. The feelings of the secone was so overwhelming. I couldn't separate from past to current. The first one I just felt like I was being pulled back...

I'm sorry I was in a weird place yesterday. @LittleBigFoot the hrt isn't so much for flashbacks but from what I understand the hormone fluctuations during menopause can cause someone to have more flashbacks. So they try to regulate the hormone fluctuations with the hrt or birth control. I'm...

Yes I'm seeing a therapist she just went on vacation. Well it felt like an emotional flashback. I saw my ex try to hang himself. I was groomed from the time I was 18 to make this one person not get angry afraid something would happen. So yes, I read a little today after I stopped crying and I...

So no replies. I guess I dumped to much. maybe I didn't even have a whatever it was.

Well, I haven't been on here much, but today something happened that I'm not sure what it was for sure. First off I've been married to my 2nd husband for 15 years. It's been mostly great. My first and my kids' father was the emotionally abusive of me and sexually abused my daughter. (I...

Well my son, who is 19 almost 20, has been in school for AMT. He is also been on prozac, busiprone and trazodone. His bio-father is bi-polar. I used to always try to fix his father, when he would quit taking his meds and get his meds refilled, getting him into the therapist, the psychiatrist...

Thank you for that. I was just sitting here worried people would judge me after I said all that. My ex was bi-polar and angry a lot. I can see he was manipulative now. I met him when I was 18 in 1984 and the abuse came out in 2003. I do try to tell myself I'm not to blame, but it's hard. I...

I feel so guilty for what I feel like is helping my ex (kids' father) rape my daughter. Not intentionally, but if would be angry, I would say "why don't you go out and talk to your dad" when he was out in the shed or something. Cause they seemed to get along and in reality he raped her. How...

I do drink around 67 ounces a day. And I'm sorry my post was so weird I think. I did talk to my therapist this morning and a lot probably can be due to the hormones. I am through most of menopause. But I was having some major flashbacks that weren't easy to handle so they put me on the...

I went for my mile walk listening to music and all of a sudden I started having memories flash in my mind. Not all bad but not all good either. Remembering my kids grandma on their dads side. All the guys I have been with and not been with. I don't understand why this is happening. I started...