Supporter 20 Years Of Love Gone In Half An Hour.

[ihatethewordsmyfriends]

Just noticed Molly's dog. Is init funny how dogs know. We have two dogs. A sharpie ( rolly dog) and a mini shitzu. When all this happen the mini shitzu( bella) never left my side. She would sleep next to me or on me. Not very comfortable mind u. I couldn't go to the toilet with out her needing to be by my side. She was like this for two months. People could not believe how this dog was. I couldn't leave her sight. The night I tried to end my life she wouldn't stop staring at me I had to put her out of the room. She is back to her self now still when I'm really low she comes and lays with me. I'll try and post a pic of her. Its just something else I would never of believed could happen.

 

[jostle]

Yes my cat always seemed to know when something was up with me and would follow me around - animals are very interesting like that.

 

[Molly Anne]

Thank you very much and you are so welcome! :)
My dogs have done the same for me also :)

 

[NIKI]

Hi, I am so sorry you are having such a terriblle time in your life.

Made me cry to hear how your little dog is trying to help you anyway she can.

 

[Abrasky]

You must be a wonderful father if your daughter is able to express that she loves and misses her family.

I was just thinking about how sometimes PTSD can effect how people love someone. In my 13 years with PTSD, I have a few really healthy and important relationships that I let go because I was frightened of the good feelings they made me feel. Good feelings sometimes can be pretty scary to someone with PTSD.

Some of my good feelings were right down at my personality core, which was attacked in the life threatening attack that gave me PTSD. However I recovered them, and started appreciating those people who share good feelings once again. It took 13 years. It may be that your wife doesnt' want to be with you because you are a good bloke. It is sought of a bit like a cyclone which people PTSD picks and goes past that we are afraid of having relationships with.It's very sad. It's sometimes because of good qualities though which is lol.. For instance I was afraid of some people like like to spread beauty through work after my trauma. I lost them from my life, they were very dear to me. But I am starting to find them in my life again after healing.

Hang onto that some part of your wife remembers, but that PTSD could be why she forgets. Don't blame yourself. You shouldn't when there is no reason to.

 

[Molly Anne]

Maze,
Thank you for sharing that. Every little bit of knowledge helps me learn how to care for my sufferer, who has pushed me out of his life. Hopefully someday he'll return and find me back in his life again. Stories like yours give me hope that he, too, can heal. :)

 

[ihatethewordsmyfriends]

Thank you everyone. You people are amazing. I'mjust very low at the moment. The weekends are always hard for me.

 

[ihatethewordsmyfriends]

I v been rereading all your posts. And can I just thank everyone that has posted it has ment alot to me. If I was religious I'd say god bless you all. Instead I'll say I love you all. Thank you so very much. Darren

 

[Sandra]

Big hugs for Darren.

 

[ihatethewordsmyfriends]

Thank you Sandra I'll take em. It's been a long time since I've had one. Thank u

 

[Molly Anne]

:::::hugs::::: :)

 

[ihatethewordsmyfriends]

Thanks Molly. U made me smile. both of u did.