3 Year Anniversary, Not Doing Well

[mytai]

This is my daughter's tree when it was flowering last year. It doesn't flower until later in the year - closer to summer.

 

[TimeToHeal]

What a beautiful memorial for your daughter, @mytai. What kind of tree is it?

 

[mytai]

@TimeToHeal, it's a quick fire hydrangea tree/shrub. The flowers start out white when they first bloom and then change to different shades of pink.

 

[Echo]

Perfect, @mytai, it is gorgeous. Life-affirming, strong and very beautiful.

 

[TimeToHeal]

How beautiful @mytai. I hope in the future it will be safe for you to visit. I imagine it could be healing to visit and tend to your daughters tree.

How are you doing today? :hug:

 

[mytai]

I'm a little better today after having a session with my T, the screaming in my head has quieted a bit, but I'm still really struggling today. Thanks for asking @TimeToHeal.

 

[HelenB]

Glad the screaming has quietened a bit, and am thining of you too.
Helen

 

[mytai]

As part of my self care I did something I wouldn't normally do. I spent money in myself to go buy a bike. My other one was lost/stolen in a move, and seeing as I can't run without passing out I need a way to physically exert myself in a healthy manner. So biking is my best option.

Couldn't really afford to do this right now, I'm going to have to sacrifice some other things, sell some belongings. I knew if I didn't find a way to physically exert myself ASAP that I would wind up in the hospital again. I'm losing it. So I'm about to go on my first ride in years. Here's to hoping this quiets the screams some more.

 

[TimeToHeal]

I know that foreign feeling of doing something for yourself. And no need to justify your purchase here @mytai, you deserve it!! So for what it's worth, I say good for you!! :tup: