5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[intothelight]

Leave the group or just quit reading as so many recent deaths are playing with my mood and my head? The longer I live with this it is expected that more will die.

Do I really know how to live without fear? When I conquer one, another moves in to take its place.

How do people balance all the demands of life? I use to know, but now so much eludes me.

More questions than answer today.

Always erasing the picture that is my life and redrawing.

 

[Teasel]

So sorry for your loss @Junebug :hug:

 

[Ronin]

Sorry for your loss, @Junebug

Glad they've given you so much, though. May they rest in peace

 

[WishfulThinking123]

1.I wish I was numb
2. Hours until T is going to feel absolutely agonizing and like a lifetime
3.I regret my actions last night- they only made me feel worse not better like I hoped
4. I love the show Desperate Housewives- great distraction
5. I need to rely on God! I feel so distanced today and distracted, I am just so depressed....

 

[WishfulThinking123]

@Junebug I am whining about me and I just saw your post...I am so sorry! I hope you are doing better with the news today. Hugs!

 

[Deleted member 37085]

Two of my people died at work

So sorry @Junebug (((hugs!))) for losses at your work; hoping you feel better... Wish 1

Wishing everyone a beautiful day today X

Wishing you a beautiful Tuesday day today! (((hugs!)))...Wish 2

I want to cry all the time again

Hoping you feel better this day! (((hugs!)))...Wish 3

Hoping Ronin's depression is lifting and lifting! (((hugs!)))...Wish 4

Hoping that Rx (thyroxine) is decreased, and that docs/nurses where I receive medical grow a heart! for goodness sakes! Grrrr! Hurry up and wait! Grrr! (((self-hugs!))) Wish 5

 

[Muttly]

@Junebug I am so sorry. Sending lots of support your way

1) I slept but I'm exhausted. hmm... I mean, I know the special mutt woke me. And I know I dreamed... but I feel like I shouldn't be quite this tired?
2) The dream.. bad bad stuff. It was him. I now have the sui thoughts and want to scrub my skin off. I am tired of giving him headspace
3) Am getting more worried about special mutt
4) Maybe I am a bad friend
5) I should come up with a plan for today

 

[Ronin]

Maybe I am a bad friend

Hardly Muttly. Bad friends don't worry if they /are/ bad friends.

 

[Deleted member 37085]

4) Maybe I am a bad friend

Geez @Muttly I do so agree w/Ronin...bad friends do NOT worry if they are bad friends! I hope your plan of action for yourself today is to try and only try to stop beating up on self...(((hugs!!!))):hug:friend!:hug:

 

[Ronin]

1. I'd need like quadruple this dose of painkillers. Which would of f*cking course mean morphine with what's locally available, and ain't that f*cking /stellar/.
2. Let's focus on the good things & normal things & pieces making sense.
3. Having anyone in my apartment is still so effing horrifying but gosh, need this sucker done. Brain? Brain? Not everyone'll try to kill you in your so called home. Really. Get a grip. f*ck sake. Last four times people visited, it's been genuinely f*cking normal and polite and engaging conversations.
4. f*ck the forests & f*ck the trees & f*ck the palms & f*ck a long line of cities. (Where's my thinking of Cali, no bad memories with Cali, yet.)
5. Okay, dances & 'would tell you in a heartbeat'. That long line of other things needa move. - New information > outdated information. Trusted people & consistent people > enemies & moodswingy bastards.
6. U so concise self. Ffs. Less words. More clarity.

 

[Deleted member 37085]

@Ronin so hard on self...makes me sad...I do this too...(((hugs!))):hug:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

So sorry for what is going on in your life right now, @intothelight , and @Junebug .