5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[user44376]

I miss my ex wife. Laughing together. Having our own language.

I'm scared I've really damaged myself beyond repair.

I'm grateful for downloading the complete South Park collection because I need to laugh so bad.

Tired of being alone.

Don't have five today.

 

[ninja]

I see S tomorrow and I have a feeling it will be a lot of crying. It's been a chaotic week and I think things are finally settling in, but I am doing a lot more living in the world and still learning how to balance feeling my feelings and staying grounded with the increased social interaction & steady stream of new and unpredictable experiences.

I am so grateful the spot for the course opened up so I could switch out out of the MWF section to the Tue/Thu. Now I will only be missing one lecture on Monday and I don't have to ask S about switching times.

I want to be more authentic and honest, and deeply grounded in nature.

I am excited about maybe getting a cat a few years in the future.

It is nice to spend time with J.

 

[Deleted member 43031]

My stomach hurts
I am going to cancel my OMT apt tomorrow
My daughters birthday is today - and she is estranged from me and it hurts so badly - haven't spoken in 2 years
I am enjoying watching Doc Pol on TV
I wish I had a private chef, I'd always eat healthy

 

[Crow]

1. Having someone visit for no other reason than visiting was peculiar and nice.
2. It's been about sixteen years since that's happened
3. I kept glancing at the clock wondering when she would leave
4. I wasn't embarrassed by my place.
5. I really need to sleep

 

[Anrish]

1. @Crow : I'm glad you had such a nice experience after the hardships of the last weeks.
2. Sick at home - at the edge of crying since the night...
3. Feeling alone, lost and just horrible.
4. Angry at university.
5. Just get it over with.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

My daughters birthday is today - and she is estranged from me and it hurts so badly - haven't spoken in 2 years

I understand how this feels and I am sorry that this is happening to you today. It does really hurt so much. I just went through this myself with my own estranged daughter.:cry::cry::cry:

 

[Muttly]

1) Unless I start feeling radically better in the next hour, I guess I'm probably heading back to the doctor.
2) I was hoping for a lighter day with the pet business, but just agreed to some challenging stuff. sigh.
3) I damn well better get my car today
4) haven't talked to the bf. I should actually deal with that
5) I have a serious crush on trevor noah
6) So happy its raining

 

[Chiqui]

1 Did some watercolors last night :)
2 So many nightmates everynight!! Still amuse me how much I do remember from the past on nightmares.
3 I need some clothing now! Trousers a bluses are small from last year. May do this later during tje day.
4.- I want to buy the same brand that alteady have, different colors. No complications.
5.- I have started some streching exercises at home, very simple, for my stiff neck. Soooo proud:)

 

[ninja]

I hold my body with a lot of tension often. I'd like to work on that. I'd like to be over food issues. I'd like to go back to yoga. I have no idea whether that is possible or not. I'd like to move my body more regularly. It helps me stay grounded. Otherwise I tend to feel like feet and a head without a middle and that is not a comforting feeling.

The pharmacy gave me a different kind of medicine than I needed. It does not work nearly as well. Thankfully I have more of the stuff that does work.

I am glad to be home.

I am determined to foster health. I'm starting to see I am learning how. Solitude is a non-negotiable need. Grateful for people.

I'm worried a bit that the ibuprofen I've been taking to relieve some pain today is going to hurt my stomach badly because I tend to get pain when I take it and I've taken double today (which is still within normal limits). That is what the clinic is for Ninja. It'll be there if you need it. I will more than likely be just fine.

 

[intothelight]

Have to pack up and drive back home, but for now I am listening to the rain and chilling before the marathon starts.
Planning some gym time so I can stay on top of my exercise goals. These really aren't optional as not only does it help with mood, it also helps improve immunity and a myriad of other physical benefits. Need to see it as necessary as breathing.
Need to remember to get flu and shingles vaccines this week.
Have one issue that I am not looking forward to addressing to day and need to put my diplomat hat on.
Why do tires cost so much?

 

[Ironlady]

1. I'm communicating better and not projecting as much and calling myself out on my own shit. There is much centering here. Still learning.

2. Despite being verbally attacked by my brother this week. Emotional blackmail and manipulation no longer works with me.

3. Still thinking about school.. still unsure of timing but yes still thinking about trying.

4. I get torn apart sometimes but now I have enough inner self awareness to stitch myself back together. Before there wasn't anything to stitch together. Progress.

5. i have choices and I no longer make the choice to be a part of the perpetually dysfunctional madness behind the manipulation and narcissistic abuse from my family even though I do mourn and grieve over it. And that's ok.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Just for today, all is right in my world.:happy:
I feel very motivated today to do the tasks I set for myself.:geek:
I cannot remember how to open up my blood pressure cuff to put in batteries:(
I need to call and find out when the hospital starts giving flu shots so I can get one.:arghh;
I really hope that I do not get sick this coming winter again:arghh;:cautious: