5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Tornadic Thoughts]

• Size really does matter when using/popping bubble wrap for therapeutic purposes. lol
  
• The bigger the bubble, the bigger the bang....much more fun to walk and dance on, too.
  
• The bigger the bang, the more energy gets released in the process.
  
• Unless, of course, it's a totally unexpected and by surprise bang...f*ck that noise!
• The side effects of those kind of bangs create more need for even more therapeutic moments...ongoing...and going....
• Bonus/excess thought...it seems the story/need never ends, as there's always unexpected bangs and shit to take us off our game, dammit.

 

[Ronin]

1) @Tornadic Thoughts :roflmao::hilarious::tup: That was hilarious.
2) Thoughts without words.
3) I hope I be finished with this long overdue reporting. For Igloo Lady, that So Not Rasta gentleman, and other cops that are and act right.
4) Wake up, no sleeping in the waves, babybird.
5) Malta.
6) L.S. and puppies. Along: reasons to not sleep.

 

[ladee]

Thinking that if @Ronin doesn't start eating, I'm going to have to turn to serious nagging mode.
Thinking how complicated my life becomes when I THINK.
Laughing out loud at what a strange sounding word 'THINK' is, rhymes with STINK.
Thinking about my brother.
Thinking about what a long life I've had, and how many times I've been blessed with reprieves.

 

[SeekingAfrica]

Thinking about why is everything closed down for holidays exactly when I need it.
Thinking that routine is a good thing for me and holidays make me nervous when I don't have plans.
...but that this is a good time to tackle all the things that always get on the backburner.
Thinking I want to sleep through today, but that would be depressing.
Thinking I really can't be thinking right now because it makes me nervous.

 

[intothelight]

1. Tired of going back to the drawing board, but what choice is there.
2. Am I the only person who sees or looks ahead?
3. People are so screwy.
4. Choosing to make the best.
5. State it so they know and if they care to ignore it the consequences are clear.

 

[Chiqui]

-Afraid of being blamed
-Its not my fault. Distorted thinking.
-It doesn't matter! I feel blamed and ashamed
-I hate arguments because I am afraid and go into frozen mode.
- Result: I avoid people and emotional closeness :(

 

[Tinyflame]

1. Someone went to bat- not for just me, but for many, but still to make life easier, and it helps, and.helps me. Wow. :notworthy:
2. Overwhelmed with news of a tragedy in the country. :cry: :( I mean, selfishly, can't bear hearing more about it for a moment, though the people in it have no choice. :cry: Felt better when one said ~ "we'll get through being in it, and through it" .Woman at work shouted at me that I don't understand how the people are grieving, in response to saying it is good she is alive and that she should celebrate her birthday, and to her family she is a great part of their world. :eek: :eek: :(
3. Feel guilty with #2, but heart can't take any more atm. :( :cry:
4. Saw ptsd/ 1st Responders documentary mentioned today here, not too much new of itself but a few things I have not really considered though I relate. The people could articulate it/ piece their thoughts and feelings together and describe them and the process in ways I cannot find the words for, but I think were spot on. Felt bad to watch it (see #2 ^^). Was actually thinking watching it would prove to me/ show me that I wouldn't relate or identify or ~qualify at all, my issues must be minimal and much-ado-about-nothing, but almost shocked and ashamed to say I related to all of it deeply.
5. it's 3 a.m. and I-am-still-awake-and-wish-I-weren't, too much in my head. :(
6. Hugs and sweet dreams/ no nightmares to all. :hug:

 

[Teasel]

Hugs for @Chiqui & @Junebug :hug:
Messed up my sugar levels, must sort em out again
Twinged my back too. Ouch
Love the new series of Roseanne :D
Sausages

 

[ladee]

Thinking I don't always know what love is supposed to feel like.. I know what it feels like to send it out. Not sure how it's supposed to feel on the receiving end.. but staying open... I want to know what that means.

 

[SeekingAfrica]

Wondering what's with people not showing up for meetings they have set up again and again
Wondering if I'm spiriling
Feeling like I need for things to be finally better
But being so far from it
Feeling like if I really sit down to make a game plan, my mind will explode from how much this hurts

 

[Muttly]

@Junebug Sending support your way

1) Today was a bit of a train wreck for me, but I guess I could have done worse
2) the problem with emailing my T is now I want an answer. heh.
3) I hope I don't have the shoulder/neck issues again tonight. If I do, I guess I really will see if the chiropractor can see me.
4) tomorrow I really need to get things done
5) life is exhausting :P

ok... and a gratitude. I'm grateful for the warmer day today and the signs of spring.

 

[Tinyflame]

Aw @Bearlinda and @Muttly , thank you. :notworthy::hug::hug::inlove: And all who are so kind. :notworthy::hug:

I hope your shoulder feels better soon @Muttly , the chiropractor sounds necessary and oh- such sweet relief that will bring you! :):hug::hug:

Hope you feel better @SeekingAfrica . :(:hug:

@ladee I understand. I heard some things about how to support someone with trauma/ ptsd, could totally apply them to my sister, or others, but could only think or imagine receiving the same sort of thing in return would be very generous- and actually would never happen (nor be deserved). :( :hug::hug::hug: