A Wild Beast

[garden]

This article made me think about my healing.

As I peel layers of junk that was imposed upon me, and that I created out of the need for survival, I am discovering that at my core, I'm this primal being, and as I get comfortable with these old 'new' parts of myself, I'm transforming and healing. It's exciting.

Amazing that amidst the pain, and other ugly things we all know so well, we can still feel other things like excitement, curiosity, and camaraderie...

http://www.elephantjournal.com/2015...ke+in+the+Inbox+of+Your+Mind&utm_medium=email

 

[holdenmonty]

one of the forums I'm in we tend to call ptsd "the beast" because it truely makes us feel like it's this beast inside of us trying to destroy us.

 

[Nam]

we tend to call ptsd "the beast" because it truely makes us feel like it's this beast inside of us trying to destroy us.

Mine is a black dog. Sometimes it's quiet in the corner. Other times it's growling, and at times it's attacking. Mine is outside of my body though...interesting thought.

@Lewa I'm starting to see that I'm recovering faster. I can't see it when I'm in it. When I'm in it, I feel like there is no light at all. But then it lifts, and of course, I'm relieved. Only after it lifts do I realize that it was faster than the last time. Or that I have fewer intrusive thoughts. Or my depression following wasn't as crippling. I can only hope that it'll continue in this direction.

Amazing that amidst the pain, and other ugly things we all know so well, we can still feel other things like excitement, curiosity, and camaraderie...

Beautiful quote. Worth repeating.

ETA: the artwork on that page is amazing.

 

[garden]

@Nam, I notice differences too this time around. My youngest sister came over on Saturday and she knows that I've been in the middle of another surge of ptsd symptoms, and she said that I looked great compared to the last time, and that even how I sounded was better than last time. It really made me feel better because it gave me hope. Last night my husband said that this time I'm improving faster. It's always good to get this kind of feedback from your supporters, and it makes me feel optimistic about having fewer relapses and then being able to bounce back from them sooner. You're right though, it's hard to see it yourself because you're in it, it's likely that we all do that, our symptoms make it hard to see things as clearly sometimes. Glad you liked the art on that page btw.