Abusing Pain Meds A Bit

[Chava]

Saying a bit because I just overdid it today, but there are days here and there where I admit I probably take an extra pill when I do not physically need it. Also, I've never taken more than my prescription I regularly take less, so when I "over do" I'm just bumping up to full prescription...though I don't need that much for pain very often, so like today just did it to numb out a bit. I should just get off all pain meds (take small doses of a few), but I don't tolerate pain well. But on days like today, I take an extra pill for the wrong reason. I guess I just feel like saying that.

I haven't drank for a couple weeks, but it's hard having some stuff I don't know how to deal with or talk about (not here, not in therapy either, not anywhere). I'm hoping the stuff transforms or I find ways to talk, if needed, that feel okay. But tomorrow I think I'll try exercising more, maybe take a little road trip. I just want to be really super aware of how I'm using my meds because I know you can f*ck up sobriety in all kinds of ways. I also want to learn how to manage some of the gnarly shit better on my own, just staying present and taking care of myself.

Sort of helping hold myself accountable by writing. Thanks for reading/listening.

 

[Jnean]

thanks for sharing.

 

[The Albatross]

" I just want to be really super aware of how I'm using my meds because I know you can f*ck up sobriety in all kinds of ways. I also want to learn how to manage some of the gnarly shit better on my own, just staying present and taking care of myself."

Bravo Chava!

P.S. Pain management for chronic physical stuff techniques takes the same thing sobriety does... diligence, practice, persistent actions... even when I don't want to.

 

[Kevin Connor]

Thanks for update.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Saying a bit because I just overdid it today, but there are days here and there where I admit I probably t...

I know this is a bit of an old post, so not sure if this is still an issue?

Was in here to ask a question about another medication but this caught my eye.

Im on a massive amount of pain meds/patch due to falling off a ladder & breaking my back.

Pain is hard, majorly depressing; but i think your courage to admit that you've found the numbing factor some/most pain meds have, is admirable!

If its ok for me to say, when i was on oxy (before moved to what im on now which doesnt make me high at all) but id run off and take extra. I live in the pain pill capitial State of America (prob just gave away the State i live in as this was/is well know nationwide) and to find a pain Dr that would take me after the 1st one released me was a miricle.

But i told my therapist & i also told my therapist the min my huffing of duster took on a major life of its own, for about s yr, i dont know what he writes on the papers in my thick file but i know he didnt tell anyone, he didnt even point it out to my psychritrist that prescibes me xanax. And all my Drs know whom the rest are, so he could of called my pain dr & as far as i believe my State law, would have been legally right to. But he didnt.

My pain dr knows i have a therapist but has no clue why and put no to "are you depressed"; "are you suicidal" on the pain contract.

I dont know your therapist or how he/she would react, my only point was that you dont have to deal/be accountable w/ this in your own.

If anything, know im here! :hug: