Addiction

[Fabota]

Raymond Bergner has published quite a bit of stuff on heavy use of porn and on the effects of humiliation on people

He's got a lot of his papers up on his academia.edu page, he's a clear and understandable writer.

Take a look at what he's covering and see if it resonates with your experience and feelings. you might need to sign up to download, but it doesn't seem to be creepy.

 

[Tizu]

Go to S make therapist that specializes in addiction and PTSD/trauma. If he can't help you then he will surely refer you to someone who can.

 

[Vebaz]

A male therapist* ugh

 

[Sokeb]

here's Raymond Bergner's page with his (understandable and IMO good) papers on porn and sex addiction, trauma, humiliation etc.
http://ilstu.academia.edu/RaymondBergner
see what you make of them and if anything clicks or resonates with you.

 

[Dobub]

Go to S make therapist that specializes in addiction and PTSD/trauma. If he can't help you then he will surely refer you to someone who can.

I already see a male PTSD/trauma specialist. I've just not been able to bring myself to say anything about this to him.

 

[Iboj]

Male here - who spent several years with a female who from time to time would use porn showing gay males.

each to their own, I generally got the benefit after she'd been getting worked up on porn - I just had to make sure I cleared the browser history and cookies if I was taking my computer into work.

I turned down requests that I bring guys home so she could watch the action. I'm mono - it's one person at a time for me.

 

[Tokif]

I don't trust myself to not be attracted to another abuser

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