Afraid I'm Going To Die Soon

[Ujew]

Thanks Pohude. My dr ordered a test specific for asthma but my pulmonary function numbers were too low to do the test (what respiratory therapist told me during first test) so it was cancelled. I thought my dr would call with results but they have not and I am often not awake during day hours anyway.

I will make an appointment and go to dr and see what he says. Respiratory therapist was surprised I dont have pulmonary dr. specialist.
I probably am not thinking straight. My husband had a pool put in because he knows I love the sun, but I cant bring myself to go outside and enjoy it. Ive been smoker for 40 yrs too so I think Im just avoiding. Thanks for advice.

 

[Acug]

Ugh, yes. I'm just now getting over an existential crisis after 4 months because of multiple big life changes happening. It really went downhill when my abusive grandpa died and my alcoholic (but still loved) grandma went into assisted living because she has dementia from all of the alcohol she consumed for the past 40+ years. Also graduating college was/is a life-changer, especially if you don't have a job or anything set up afterwards. Now I've managed it into fear of dying young and not doing everything I wanted to (so I made a bucket list and realized that it is tough to do all of them, but I have a while).

It's anxiety, PTSD, and OCD acting up for me in this case; notice what it is and say "anxious thought/feeling" and "I see you, I accept you, anxious thought/feeling" for just a second, and continue on with whatever you were doing. What's happened is you've fixated on something scary and so your brain is going to fixate on it until it no longer holds such high emotion. It sounds like you have intrusive obsessive thoughts (like me).

 

[Acu]

I know exactly how you feel, this just started for me yesterday ever since then, i'm like maybe it's today? Maybe it's gonna happen on my way to school, it's like i feel it coming but I don't know when. I don't really know what triggered this but i think it's because my anxiety has been getting really bad over the past couple months. It's a horrible feeling. I don't know if i'm the only one that feel like its gonna come.. Please let me know how your feeling now i'd really appreciate it.