All Questions, No Real Answers

[cragger65]

Wow, Beatle, amazing story, amazing slice of your life. I always feel like I'm being a bother when I ask people for help, but this gave me a real "chin up" feeling about human frailty. You are quite a man.

 

[beatle_bailey]

Latest Medical Scare

Part 1

Its been a long time , , so I thought I would give you a situation
report . . .
On june 4th I was hospitalized , , I had 5 mini strokes in 2 days
and was kept or at least slept in the hospital for 9 days ,, my friend
posted about it , and even read the replies from the
concerned freinds here , , , Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.

well ,, what happened was , , I woke up 6/4/08 and went out and made
my coffee , turned on the TV , , felt a bit funny , , tried to cough and
could only make a strange sound ,,aahhh, , tried to blow my nose and had a
very hard time doing that , , but my mind seemed to be working just fine , ,
I went to the mirror and looked at my face cause by now I new somthing was
wrong ,, nothing wrong with my smile or anything else , , coffee was ready
so I got a cup , , this took longer than normal in fact it was hard to do ..
when I got to the sofa and took a sip , , My gag reflex was messed up and I
coughed or almost choked , , I tried to talk , , no luck there , , just
aahhhhgg , so I just kept trying to drink my coffe and cough over + over ..
My mind was raising just a bit by now , but just tried to stay calm . .
by the time I got done with the 2nd cup of coffe I could talk , , but sounded
like I was very very drunk ,, I would repeat the word relax over + over , ,
still not shore what was wrong , I went down town to show some rental property
for my friend ,, no problem with motor skills as I said ..
well I showed the rentals and talked to the guy , ,we both thought I should
call the Doc , but lets finish this first , , Nice Guy , , F*****
when I got home I called my Docs office ,,Karen the receptionist answered and with
a ferm voice told me not to move , Nurse Ann got on the line in secounds and listened to me talk and told me to go to the Hospital right away , , I said I will leave right now.
she said call an ambulance , , I said I aready have bin drivin and I was not going to wait on an ambulance when I could drive just fine , , I then called My Sister Martha , she is very good under bad condissions , , , My daughter Robin is my Proxie , , but I could not put her thru what was happening to me right then , , even tho we had many talks about this subject , , My mortality , , , anyway I would find out later that that strong sister turned to her husband Brian and exclaimed { I don't think he will make it thro the night }, , some times I'm really am an idiot or just plain stuburn !!! Ya think ? or have I just had way to many crissis in my life , , can't figure , , , , about 1+1/2 an hour had passed by now ...+
So I walk in to the hospital emergency room and ask the girl if she has a couple
of asprin (By now I can talk normally) she asks why , I replied {cause either I am
havin a stroke or a heart attack }. Boy I haven't got into the emergency room so fast
since I was 14years old , {good story there to - but not now} ..
so I get all hooked up ,blood pressure, ekg ,cat scan, Doc Q+A session ,
nothing yet , , then I have stroke #2, , buzz the nurse + get the Doc , now
they see the problem , , , I am addmitted right away, , , it passes again , I get food ,and an MRI with a ambulance ride to a differant hospital for the MRI, { the drivers never did do the siareens for me} or I was to druged up by then to notice . . .

I'm scared now and I have to call people , , , , dear friends that are close by
, , ,My friends can tell I'm all screwed up and I'm losing it , my emtions are screwed by now ,, some seditives and later when I calm down and I'm in between strokes I do talk to Robin . . I try to be strong but she knows it's bad , more valuum + it's bed time in the ICU..
that ends Day 1 , , of course you get woken up several times at night , , just to make shore tou are still alive and so the nurses can take Blood , bloodd presure , heart rate and so on , , but at least they give you a shot in the ass so you can go back to sleep , ,

Day 2 starts off with a good breafast new nurses and the attending Doc visit , , Q+A again

 

[beatle_bailey]

Day 2 Emotional Fear

Day 2 starts off with a good breakfast new nurses and the attending Doc visit , , Q+A again
this morning I felt OK but I was still not quite right. I answered there questions as best I could , but not one of them thought anything I had to say meant much . for instance, I kept telling them I had a headache right above my right temple and that is right were the blood clot that they found the day before was. I do hate when people talk down to me or when they talk like you aren't even in the same room.
I don't know about any of you but I need answers when shit like this is happening to me.
the day went on like this and I got a few visitors. Then my massage therapist / friend arrived.
Kathy is very good and has been working on me for 7yrs. She has seen all of my many different sides - ups + down - ext ex ct.
Kathy and I were talking about these headache's I was having and how the staff was ignoring my idea , about how when the ache got bad the stroke would come on. I asked her to go and see if she could get my point across to them, I head was starting to ache more around then.
I had the idea to call my child we had talked already but I wanted to tell her it was a good time to come and visit. man was that a mistake. Kathy came back and we chatted for a minute when the nurse came in. I told the nurse my head hurt and she wanted to give me Motrin or Tylenol. I answered that neither of them ever helped my headaches. I started to get riled, the RN was getting snooty and as I got more upset my head hurt more and then stroke number 3 or 4 hit. again I could not talk grandiloquent my emotions hit the roof .
the RN asked Kathy if I ever got this way, Kathy gave a flat NO Never. RN ran for Valium and Docs. I grew very upset my child might come and got Kathy to call her and say this may not be a time to come . I mind was racing so fast and all emotions were loose in full force. this happened, I think, 3 times in the 2nd day, and I know longer feared dieing but feared braking my Daughters heart among a few others. My heart was being torn. some would later say to me this love for my child and life might have saved my life.
They gave me lots of Valium to keep me calm and took another CAT scan that day. I can't remember all the different visitors I had that day or the following days. but I do remember some. GoingonHope Bob Johnny Jessica Eddie My child Robin her Mom and Don
and more. All had this scared look in there eyes.
This is very hard to write , , , emotion running wild again. I find it hard to believe so many people care so deeply for me. End day 2

 

[Tinyflame]

Aw, Beatle, -and rightly they should care so, just as you care for them. You are a very special and unique person and one hell of a fighter (and I mean that in a great way.) What an experience, -let alone how frightening. AND, you've got an even longer list now when you add in so many more people here (don't forget!)