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[Tiger]

Doesn't matter how hard I try, no matter what I do, it is in my head all the time and it's doing my head in!! Has anyone got a really good distraction technique that I can try before I actually go completely insane? Nothing I have tried so far has helped, at all!! I have held ice cubes, I have walked until I nearly collapse, I have had a bath, I have watched films, I have listened to music, I have cried, I have hugged a teddy, I have tried to sleep!!!! Is there something else I haven't tried? Please could someone help me? Just don't know how to get out of this darkness!!!! I apologize if this comes across as pathetic!!!!

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

How about writing? What if you just wrote about what you are feeling or what you are wishing for right now? Sometimes it's enough of a release that then some of the other distractions you have tried might work. Or maybe baking something that has a really pleasing scent. I hope you can find something that helps. It doesn't sound pathetic, by the way, just like someone in search of help.

 

[bluebird]

To me, very helpful is cooking, painting, creating something with my hands - I can see a result of my work, and it makes me feel better for being able to make something beautiful :)

 

[Tiger]

Thanks!! I appreciate your understanding!!!

 

[Justmehere]

Games - word games, math games, Brian games, video games

Sometimes I set a timer. Let myself think about the topic, and then distract.

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

Grr, the brain is an annoying thing. Yoga? :P I seem to advocate that to everyone lately.
That's because I feel it does wonders grounding. Walking, not so much. Your brain will still have enough space to come up with things, but with yoga you just focus on what you're doing and what the teacher is telling you. There are some awesome videos on doyogawithme.com, I'm not affiliated, found their site a while ago.

Working out generally works well for me. Just being active with your body, shifting your attention to your body rather than mind. Finding peace and strength in your body through workout or relaxation sometimes helps settling down the brain.

 

[franciemarnie]

Maybe try doing something you absolutely love to do. I remember once having the hardest time and it came to me that there were stables two blocks away so I called them and within the hour was on a horse. That brought me back to the present and out of the past.

You must find something more powerful. It takes time to find them. Rereading my favorite books from childhood works. Helping someone who is in worse shape than me. Preparing some kind of food that requires immediate focus. The smells tell the survival brain we are in 2014 now. Use the senses to come back. Controlled breathing. Binaural beats scramble the brain. You can download them. Just look up binaural beats.

 

[Tiger]

Thank you for all your suggestions!!!! I am so thankful for all the replies!!!

 

[mrsps]

argh I feel your pain! I wish at times I could just turn my mind off. Funny thing is my T has gone through with me ways I can distract myself to stop over thinking certain things but when my mind is racing with thoughts I can never remember the techniques she has told me!
Is there something you love doing you can do, do you have any friends you could hang out with?
Best of luck xx :)

 

[Tiger]

I have been very impulsive this week, I have bought a couple of pet rats!!! I love them!!! They are sooooo cute!! They are really helping me cling on at the moment!! (Even though I haven't received the answer for permission to have them yet!! So that's just something else to stress me out!! I am stupid, I really am!!) I feel very awkward around friend, I am worried that they might feel my emotions seeping from me and that makes me feel so stupid and vulnerable!! I don't do myself any favours at all, especially when things are so painful already!!! I am just so stupid! Seriously!!!

 

[Jane.l]

I used to have a pet rat as a teenager - he was so cute - they are lovely little things - mine used to curl up and sleep on my tummy.

Rat play time might be a good distraction :)

 

[Tiger]

Yeah!! They are only 3 months old so I am trying to tame them!!! It does help!! I am just a bit worried about the permission thing!!! I guess I am worried about everything really!!! I am just totally stressed out about life in general!!!! My brain is constantly going over the past, petrified about the present and can't even comprehend a future!!