Hi. Ever since I have been diagnosed with PTSD my worst nightmare was reaching a point where I don't care about anything. Am just tired of this pain am tired of these depression and tired of everything. These is too painful. I tried to sell naked pictures of myself online, just so I could feel Worthy. Am 27 years of age...am not married and Don't have kids. I have a whole degree and yet it is useless....I should be settling into my adult life and yet am scared leaving the house.
I know that the people who did this to me can't get to me but I feel like everyone knows that I was sexually assaulted and raped and they are morking me. I feel like the next rapist is around the corner waiting for me.
My Christian therapist told me that " am a sinner and that is why all this bad things happened to me and will continue to happen and that for as long as I don't repent, confess my sins". What chance do I really have of surving these, do I even have a chance. I feel useless ,dirty and unloveble. These people stole 7 years of my life from me. I have no one. I don't have any friends and well my family their just there.
I tried to avoid any substance with regards to my depression but I think it's time to self medicate or else something bad will end up happening.
Lately I have been having all this thoughts of inflicting pain on my self and it's scary. I really don't know what to do....I have left my therapist but his words keep haunting me. How will I even begin seeking help again?? I can't even handle writting these because I am in tears
I know that the people who did this to me can't get to me but I feel like everyone knows that I was sexually assaulted and raped and they are morking me. I feel like the next rapist is around the corner waiting for me.
My Christian therapist told me that " am a sinner and that is why all this bad things happened to me and will continue to happen and that for as long as I don't repent, confess my sins". What chance do I really have of surving these, do I even have a chance. I feel useless ,dirty and unloveble. These people stole 7 years of my life from me. I have no one. I don't have any friends and well my family their just there.
I tried to avoid any substance with regards to my depression but I think it's time to self medicate or else something bad will end up happening.
Lately I have been having all this thoughts of inflicting pain on my self and it's scary. I really don't know what to do....I have left my therapist but his words keep haunting me. How will I even begin seeking help again?? I can't even handle writting these because I am in tears