Analogy: My Ptsd Feels Like...

[Tinyflame]

like I am drowning.

 

[Jade-]

Like the directions on my shampoo bottle....lather,rinse, repeat.

 

[kers]

Like an unlatched storm door getting slammed open and shut by the wind, over and over again.

 

[Iron_Angel]

Like a 2200lb elephant sitting on my chest.

 

[Srain]

Like standing on a log in a river, trying to stay balanced by running in steel-toed boots, no matter what I do I am going down into the cold, filthy, murky, dark , waters, with heavy clothes on and only I can pull myself up and try to get back up on that rolling log. It's tiring and difficult.

 

[KP the nut]

Like I'm watching my life being played out on TV and I have no control over it

 

[Jawn]

Watching the light at the end of the tunnel and wondering if it's a train or freedom for a new life. Train, freedom, train, freedom, train.......hope it doesn't run me over while I'm trying to decide!

 

[seedling]

Feels like endlessly rowing across a black poison sea, away from land and toward ???. Alone and going away and farther away.

Like being in a black smooth-sided pit with no way out.

Like living in a black and gray landscape of dry volcanic ashy soil that crunches when I walk over it. No water, no life. There's only a dark black abyss of a canyon to go down into to find the way out.

 

[Teddy]

My PTSD feels like it is winning and I am loosing the battle to be able to operate in any way.
It feels like it wants to kill me.
It feels like it is in control of my whole life and no matter how hard I try it is going to stuff all the good stuff up.
It is chasing all my friends away.
it feels like it is so strong it is pointless trying to get any better.
It feels like everytime I read something believing that I am good in that area, I find it is poking its tongue at me going, 'see and you thought I had stuffed up this part of your life but I was here before you. So sucked in!'

 

[isis8]

Having PTSD is sometimes overwhelming. I have worked and continue to work in a 12 step program for addiction and talk therapy. I have been taught to use grounding and mindfulness to overcome many of my symptoms, including suicide ideation. I've been given tools to help me cope and as long as I use them, my symptoms are not as bad as they used to be.

 

[jewel]

My PTSD feels like....I am a porcelain vase that was broken, pieced back together with glue and you can see all the glue and holes inside of me where the chipped porcelain was never put back. I am unable to hold emotions which ends up leaving more gaping holes inside of me. I am no longer able to be looked at as beautiful because now you can see my emotional scars. It hurts to smile for I know another piece of me will crack and fall away. It is easier for me to be emotionless and frozen. Just hide me away and let me be. I know my cracks will not heal, but perhaps I may not get anymore gaping holes.

 

[Nev Hyde]

a rinse cycle of a washing machine that leaves me feeling damp, dizzy and hung out to dry only to be folded up, put away and worn another day