Analogy: My Ptsd Feels Like...

[KatB]

Feels like a bomb waiting to explode. Constantly looking for the next hit of relief, only that it leaves me unsatisfied.

Like a never-ending abyss and I hit no solid ground.

 

[Ricanoland]

My ptsd feels like I am lost in my own house, lost in my own town, lost in my mind, and heart.

 

[Gloria]

This is the thread that keeps me here on the forum. The descriptions put into words the Hell that I live through (some of the time). I am getting longer intervals between symptoms. However, then I have a nightmare and I can come here and know others know exactly the shattering and utterly desperate terror and waking up in cold sweat with heart pounding and I don't feel so alone. So I thank God for everyone that contributes to this thread.

 

[reckoner]

Mine mostly feels distinctly unreal and not my own.

 

[reckoner]

Mine mostly feels distinctly unreal and not my own.

ahg. tears... almost.

 

[99Phoenix99]

PTSD for me feels like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.

There are times where I'm my old self Dr. Jekyll, then I'm Mr. Hyde someone I can't even recognize. Someone with all of these characteristics I've never related to before or even believed I was capable of. And there are times when I can't remember what I've done. Then there are times when I can remember but it's feels like it was a dream. And I think to myself "that's not me" I couldn't have done that. But then there are moments of clarity when I KNOW I'm Mr. Hyde and I'll be damned if I care. I want to feel that destructive feeling. I want to be that monster. But then when time passes and I revert back to Dr. Jekyll. I'm in denial. That wasn't me. It was HIM.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

My ptsd feels like the movie Groundhog Day, where every day is the same old thing. Morning anxiety. Feeling weird. Feeling shaky. I hate to feel like this. Same old depression. It is the same thing every morning and has been for a very long time. I hate it. I hate feeling like this. I so want to wake up cheerful and looking forward to my day.

 

[Tanishq]

My PTSD feels like I have got bigger puzzle to solve. I will have to be very careful each step I take. It is crucial and I can overcome it.

 

[Gloria]

Only a moment of sheer and total terror this morning and then my dog (with diarrhea) was in a panic to go outside and as soon as reality hits, I can cope.

 

[badream]

like swimming in a razor blade sea.

 

[safenow]

Like I'm in a glass house and any minute someone is going to shoot out the glass, and I'll hear that maniacal laugh again.

 

[Traumagirl]

Safenow, that's quite an analogy.