Hello,
I suffer from ptsd, sad, gad and depression. Although I doubt the Social Anxiety Disorder as I am scared of being hurt not being judged or ridiculed. Six years ago in my second marriage I was raped by my then husband. This went on for only a few months till he decided I was inadequate. I did report my attack the first time, but was told it was spousal privilege and no one would believe me about him. He was a real winner, you know mister good looking, popular, a man's man.... The charges never made it past the police report.
We were both military, I outranked him by one, and that well, made it again a issue of me failing to control a subordinate. We did not even work at the same station but still, I was senior. I stuffed it down, ignored it, back to work I went.
After he left I picked up my boot straps, changed the locks, started divorce and custody of our now 6 year old daughter who was not even one when all this went down. I tried the proper channels, but was turned away each time with the simple statement of spousal privilege or the fact I was senior and should have stopped it. I have always had nightmares. I repainted my house, changed my command, remarried and had more kids. Never did I receive therapy as the report never went past the initial representative.
Last summer I suffered my first panic attack heading to a funeral. I rapidly became homebound outside of work. I spent a week in sept in the hospital and in October my mother passed away. So here we are today with me having tried 6 different meds to try and slow the onslaught of fear, anxiety, extreme powerlessness, the nightmares, the memories from taking control again of my life. Luckily I have a very loving soulmate whom is very supportive, and my kids are shielded from the worst. I tried one intensive therapy group to no avail, in Jan. I will try another.I figure many find aid on support forums such as this one, so here I am. Really had no idea that this could all come flooding back after so long.
Tympre
I suffer from ptsd, sad, gad and depression. Although I doubt the Social Anxiety Disorder as I am scared of being hurt not being judged or ridiculed. Six years ago in my second marriage I was raped by my then husband. This went on for only a few months till he decided I was inadequate. I did report my attack the first time, but was told it was spousal privilege and no one would believe me about him. He was a real winner, you know mister good looking, popular, a man's man.... The charges never made it past the police report.
We were both military, I outranked him by one, and that well, made it again a issue of me failing to control a subordinate. We did not even work at the same station but still, I was senior. I stuffed it down, ignored it, back to work I went.
After he left I picked up my boot straps, changed the locks, started divorce and custody of our now 6 year old daughter who was not even one when all this went down. I tried the proper channels, but was turned away each time with the simple statement of spousal privilege or the fact I was senior and should have stopped it. I have always had nightmares. I repainted my house, changed my command, remarried and had more kids. Never did I receive therapy as the report never went past the initial representative.
Last summer I suffered my first panic attack heading to a funeral. I rapidly became homebound outside of work. I spent a week in sept in the hospital and in October my mother passed away. So here we are today with me having tried 6 different meds to try and slow the onslaught of fear, anxiety, extreme powerlessness, the nightmares, the memories from taking control again of my life. Luckily I have a very loving soulmate whom is very supportive, and my kids are shielded from the worst. I tried one intensive therapy group to no avail, in Jan. I will try another.I figure many find aid on support forums such as this one, so here I am. Really had no idea that this could all come flooding back after so long.
Tympre
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