Anyone ever want to cause trouble just because?

[Ecu]

I'm not usually like this and it bothers me. I'm the mild mannered, gentle soul.

Yet for the past several months I've wanted to cause trouble. I mean really hurt people with nasty words on social media sites. I've been holding it all inside, holding back the words I'd like to spew forth, and trying to not do it.

Though the other day I said something nasty, not about a particular person, and it felt good to just do it.

I wouldn't do that behavior on this forum. It's just not my way or my normal bent.

Anybody ever feel this way?
What's this about anyway? Rage? Anger? Something else?

I'm normally not a troublemaker. This is disturbing to me.

 

[Uzuku]

I think lots of people have dark side that wants to do harm, we just hide it, its quite primal...I think it is quite natural, we can be vicious beings..have you tried another way to let it out - punching a punch bag...?

 

[Dakac]

Las Vegas...what happens in LV stays in LV.

That guy cause lots of trouble.
I can relate to you wanting to release the darkness to see who you are. How deep does the darkness go?

I drift in and out of wanting to cause trouble. It is tiring.

 

[Ecu]

have you tried another way to let it out - punching a punch bag...?

I thought of getting one. Don't have access to one.

 

[Imiwi]

Bluntness disguised as honesty has never been my thing on social media and No, I have never wanted to purposely cause troubles for anyone because that falls into the category of "Unnecessary Bullsh*t" and I don't tolerate that well nor do I dish it out.

I think a person can make a snide remark or two and it's no big deal in the overall scheme of things but causing trouble just to explore ones darkness is, to me, a sign of 'soul sickness.' Talking about one's darkness tho I think is totally healthy,...in a therapeutic setting such as individual counseling with a professional.

Also, a punching bag teaches us to strike out with our fists when we are angry and I think there are healthier ways to deal with our frustration and anger.

 

[Ecu]

a punching bag teaches us to strike out with our fists when we are angry and I think there are healthier ways to deal with our frustration and anger.

such as?

 

[Ecu]

This feels like I've got a kettle full of roiling, boiling water on the back burner. It's constantly steaming and the boiling water never runs out.

 

[Luje]

I've been holding it all inside, holding back the words I'd like to spew forth, and trying to not do it.

Are you in counseling? This may be a distraction technique to avoid letting out what's really bothering you.

 

[Amaze]

Some people can become addicted to the intensity of chemical flow from hyper-vigilance, trauma, and/ or anger. The calm or peaceful scenarios may seem flat (to some) in comparison and the body/brain searches for the next high. This may be a flag of an addictive formed personality or an chemical body imbalance on the swing.

It also can be an signal that there are unresolved issues within one's self that need addressing within a mental health regime of some fashion or choice. Many addicts in recovery during 12 Step Programs have opened up about this happening to them as they were reframing or ceasing substance abuse.

Yet generally speaking... it is time to self investigate your current choice of behavior before it becomes an engrained pattern...if you desire to change. Best of wishes in your journey.

 

[Ecu]

Yes, I'm in counseling.

I desire to change.

How does one go about telling their T about this boiling rage?

 

[Uka]

((Hugs)) ^ :tup: Perhaps tell your T as you did with us.

Offer there is something that has manifested into your behavior that you find inappropriate or unsettling. It is their job to help you navigate the conversation and your reflection on the why and regulation.

All change begins with one step. You are being courageous.

 

[Ezeho]

How does one go about telling their T about this boiling rage?

Your t has probably heard this from others along the way so they should have plenty of ideas on how to help. I think anger and rage are pretty common in the counseling room. And you are bringing it up because it worries you and you want to change. That's huge!!!! Not everyone can be that honest with themselves, and to be willing to bring those feelings out into the open and ask for help is amazing.