I am sorry to everyone for posting a very angry and suicidal-sounding thread the other day (Hell). I was being so incredibly negative and terrible and was behaving very unlike myself, and I would never want to send the message to others that it is okay to behave that way. I don't want to make excuses but I think sleep deprivation and the kidney surgery really took a toll on me. I have managed to nap today for the first time and am starting to feel at least somewhat better. Thank you to everyone who offered support, and again, I'm sorry for the suicidal overtones and aggression in that thread.