Update !!
It has been confirmed that I have suffered a severe reaction against "Clopidogrel" . This is the medication I was advised to take 75 ml a day to thin my blood and reduce greatly the risk of me having another Stroke by destroying the blood clots before they reach my brain, then cause even more damage.
The Doctor in the ER assigned to look after me was wonderful, totally understandable about my Mental Health situation. I have also seen one of the top Psychiatrists in Devon and she will be referring me to her Boss, the "Top Dog" as they say.
It was being considered that I would need to be held on a Section 3 of the MHA for my safety and the safety of the Public at Large. I have dissociated so many times over the weekend to the point I have not been able at all to recall any part of the incidents involving myself.
My Mum has witnessed me at my worst over the past 4 days she is in her 70s and unwell herself but she insists that she be my primary carer., the psych team have even offered to intervene and provide support for myself as a sufferer but also for mum due to her own health issues.
I feel so guilty that my Mum had to witness just how bad my condition is, we may have had our differences historically but she is my birth mother and I will always love her.
I am however going to be seeing the council later this week with a view to me moving into warden controlled accommodation with a Piper alarm system, so that I can call for help if I need. I know mum will be upset if I do move out but I literally scared her to death last night.
I cannot stay here however much I would love to. Mum is not in good health herself and does not need to be witnessing these episodes or having to ring the Ambulance. I love my mum dearly regardless of our pasts.
Taking that drug has severely triggered a major PTSD Episode for me, oh and by triggering as a result "HIM" is fully awake and I can constantly hear him trying to break the bars off his cell. I am struggling to keep "HIM" controlled. Little Laurie is very scared at the moment.
BUT when all is said and done, I am still alive and very grateful for that.