lavieboheme
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Hi, introduction time I guess. For staters, my name is Alex and I was diagnosed with severe non-combat PTSD, GAD, and MDD the summer after my freshman year of high school [2012].
What happened to me is an incredibly long story [I have the tragic backstory of a superhero, but I don't have the powers, that's how I like to explain myself to new friends].
My mom died from complications from a rare form of liver cancer in 2007, my dad took his emotions out on my [not physically, though], I was badly bullied in school the year after my mom died, and starting in the 7th grade I was in an extremely abusive 3 year relationship.
As if I wasn't already feeling the effects of my mental state being as stable as Francium, he's what pushed me over the edge. He emotionally manipulated me, bullied me, forced himself on me, and any other textbook "get the heck out of there" signal a person could get, but he only hit me once, so it's weird saying he abused me. A lot of his wrath was via text, which makes the sound of a phone vibrating my biggest trigger.
So, basically, I went around as an undiagnosed walking wall of instability for 6+ years, and now I'm trying to re-learn how to live life. I'm a high school student trying to get my teachers at my small prep school to understand that I don't operate like a "normal 17 year old" because, believe me, they don't.
I joined this site because I'm hoping to be able to speak to others who suffer with PTSD and such because it's hard to talk to my friends about this sort of thing.
On a more positive note, I enjoy theatre and acting/singing; it's my biggest outlet. I love all things theatre to a really absurd degree, and the musical RENT is what helped me through my mess of a childhood. I'm a huge Nerdfighter and lover of all things Sci-Fi. So yeah, it's nice to meet you all and whatnot [I'm not good at introductions]
Thanks for listening!
-Alex
What happened to me is an incredibly long story [I have the tragic backstory of a superhero, but I don't have the powers, that's how I like to explain myself to new friends].
My mom died from complications from a rare form of liver cancer in 2007, my dad took his emotions out on my [not physically, though], I was badly bullied in school the year after my mom died, and starting in the 7th grade I was in an extremely abusive 3 year relationship.
As if I wasn't already feeling the effects of my mental state being as stable as Francium, he's what pushed me over the edge. He emotionally manipulated me, bullied me, forced himself on me, and any other textbook "get the heck out of there" signal a person could get, but he only hit me once, so it's weird saying he abused me. A lot of his wrath was via text, which makes the sound of a phone vibrating my biggest trigger.
So, basically, I went around as an undiagnosed walking wall of instability for 6+ years, and now I'm trying to re-learn how to live life. I'm a high school student trying to get my teachers at my small prep school to understand that I don't operate like a "normal 17 year old" because, believe me, they don't.
I joined this site because I'm hoping to be able to speak to others who suffer with PTSD and such because it's hard to talk to my friends about this sort of thing.
On a more positive note, I enjoy theatre and acting/singing; it's my biggest outlet. I love all things theatre to a really absurd degree, and the musical RENT is what helped me through my mess of a childhood. I'm a huge Nerdfighter and lover of all things Sci-Fi. So yeah, it's nice to meet you all and whatnot [I'm not good at introductions]
Thanks for listening!
-Alex
