Hey Folks,
I am so sorry for such a long delay. I was just released from the hospital from some unexpected surgery. All is well now - I think I pushed a bad ankle when I needed to have rested it. And then things took a turn with some weird heart craziness... but again all is good now.
Hank is the light of my life. Since being back on my feet, I can tell he's being gentle, he's constantly checking with me when we walk (I have a big cast on still so I am wobbling and a lot slower). Hank has completely stopped pulling on his leash when we walk and now when he sees unfamiliar dogs, I just quietly whisper 'on by' and he doesn't pay them any attention.
It's as though he senses or knows that I don't have the physical resources yet to rein him in and so he checks himself and then 'smiles' when I tell him what a good boy he is.
My sister, about a week before this happened said to me, 'you know I would be there for you if you needed me' and I said, 'I will be there for you if you need me'. She said that I didn't seem to let her into my life. Which is true. And I haven't. And then, bang.
When they asked me at the hospital who they should call for me, I stated to cry because I wanted them to call Hank. He was at home waiting for me and I couldn't stand that he was there alone. I told them my dog was alone at home and that I had to leave. I asked them to just tape my ankle up and let me go home. The next thing I knew I was being wheeled down the cardiac floor.
I asked them to call my sister. She was a godsend. She dropped everything to come and she stayed at my house with Hank until she felt Hank trusted her enough to let her take him to her house.
I am truly blessed.
So now we are back home together. When I leave a room, Hank follows me. These past few days he doesn't seem worried as much as he just seems to want to let me know he's here and that everything is ok. Funny because when I hobble up on my crutches I tell Hank 'it's ok Hankie, everything's ok...I am here.'
Last night as I was letting him out in the yard he came face to face with a raccoon - I wasn't going to be able to run to get between them and it was a good reminder to have some leashes again handy in case Hank wants to lie outside. I think he heard the panic in my voice and as I was calling him in a very firm voice, he looked like he was going to have a go at the raccoon but instead veered off and acted like he was playing. He did a funny dog deek that was almost like he was telling the raccoon that things could have been a lot worse for the raccoon had his mom not been there!
Hank now lets the vet touch his paws all over, he takes treats with the softest mouth ever. He can walk though the dog park without his alerting (I don't take him through there too often as not every dog wants this kind of stimulation) but I do take him on occasion just to reinforce his training about staying focused. After he completes the task he wags his entire body and waits for his treats.
My sister ... I can't even say enough about what she did. Her awareness about Hank. Her thinking about how much he meant to me, her handling of my fears that something bad would happen to him, her listening to me when I told her that he might be scared or fearful, her compassion for him, her patience, her calmness, her thoroughness, her observations about his behaviour, her planning even for the first time using my key to go in the house with him there alone without me and how he might react.
When she went in the first time, Hank retreated and kept his distance. I told my sister about sitting in Hank's cage that very first day, almost all day until he came over and got close to me. She got his treat box and took one out. And then she sat on the floor in front of the tv, turned on a dvd and sat holding his treat for close to an hour before he approached her. She said Hank approached her slowly but not fearfully, he was cautious but not scared and when he finally came over to her to take his treat, he let her scratch his head while he ate.
Then she made popcorn for him. That was it. Complete love. I think he misses her because every so often he will get up and go to the window and the door and look. We made a date, the three of us to go to the park and the lake tomorrow so Hank can swim. He hasn't been swimming in a while and I know he's feeling a bit restless from the lack of running and longer physical exercise.
Since I got Hank I have been so weighted by this incredible gift and I always worried what would happen if something were to happen to me. I have money set aside in my will and the foster said they would take him back if anything happened and while I loved that about their responsibility I wanted Hank to have a real home and a real life and the best of what was possible for him. I wanted a plan and not just leave things to the foster program. I didn't know how to even approach it with people I knew and going through the list of who could take Hank in case, it all felt like I was abandoning him.
When I was in the hospital I told my sister I had a will. She jokingly asked what I was leaving to her. I ventured out and said, 'Hank?' She said, 'i would be honoured' She didn't blink, she didn't waver, she was honoured. And that was it. And so tomorrow we are going to take Hank out, and we will find the hot dog vendor who gives Hank an extra bit of hot dog and shows me how much Hank likes him. Hank does. He has a male human buddy now, and my sister. My heart feels calm about that and I can feel that Hank will be ok if anything were to happen.
And I feel I am ok because Hank is here and I get to take care of him for a lot longer now.