I went today, and to cut to the chase; bottled it. Started to just creep round the issue and flight/fight and just flew. Not literally, finished the session but backed right off (him and me). Ever seen a grown man cry.................
Once a week session over 2 and a half years is what I have behind me. And I used to go in and talk about the weather, the new door mat on many occasions. But there would still be the important stuff inbetween. You need to stop trying to make it happen and just go with the flow Jibby mucker. You can`t force it.
............It's just a bit alien to me, or make that alot alien to just open pandora's box................
Pandora`s box was full of shit, we all know that, but don`t forget that the last thing to come out of it was Hope. Ours is no different. You need to open it up and let the shit out, to have a hope of getting better. Not easy, to many of us on here will tell you that, but it is possible, and does get better
..........................there's always 'Combat Stress' on offer if this blows through I guess..........................
Maybe thats one of the problems Jibby. You have a back door built into your therapy. So what happens when you go to Combat Stress and it doesn`t work out? Sure there will be something else. There allways is. But allways having a reserve chute is not allways a good idea. You need to jump in with both feet at the deepend here mate. Sink or swim. Either it works and helps or it doesn`t and you hit the bottom, and that is the time to then move on to the next. You need to see each thing through to the end. And not do things halfheartadly because you have something else in reserve.
.................................That said, the CBT in itself I do 'get'. Find it does challenge the way you think etc, and gives some pretty hoofing head exercises to smash through some of the gunge in the nut. But maybe that's treating the symptons, not the cause, I don't know that either. I don't know much at the moment.
You know more than you think mate. Yes it does only cover symptoms it is there to help you get your shit together when your worlds implodes. The cause is covered by the therapies. You can`t have one without the other.
Well you can, but it doesn`t get you anywhere.;)
The fact you see you have a problem and are willing to do soemthing about it is good. But it all takes time son. There is no quick fix. I know the NHS only have a few sessions for you, out here in Germany it is the same, but exstension can be granted out here. When I started it was 12 sessions, shit bust the insurance told me. And then the therapist put in for more. 2 and a half years later, we have stopped so I can get my head around the stuff we covered and have a break. Which means the door has been left open for the future if I need it.
No Government Dept, wants to spend more than they need to. Thats why the info is allways very strict in the amount of anything you get. But what happens in the real world is a totaly different kettle of fish. Take your sessions for what they are, and see where it goes. A Good shrink should be able to squeeze more out of the system, in any country!
