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Uko
I have been strong now for 7 days. No contact. He hasn't contacted me though since the 25th of September. Wouldnt even respond to any of my emails. My last email was sent to him on the 7th of November. I know that's not long at all, but for me it feels like months. I realize that even from the very beginning he started out pushing me away. Never letting me get close. If he doesn't want me to be there for him and doesn't want me in his life then why should I waste my energy. I've been crushed and depressed about this for too long. It's time to move on. Maybe he will reach out to me in the future, maybe not. But at least I know I tried to be there for him. Had I known the details of what PTSD does.. I would have ran the other way. It's a losing battle from the start and it sucks the life right out of you.
