Blocked Memory Triggers

[PureDogs]

Still waiting,

Do you ever tried to have reconnection with your mom? Or both? Isn't it hard due to history?

For me it was hard due to my history as well. I have block memories from my childhood as well

 

[Still waiting]

Yes I tried several times. The last time was 6 months ago. I erased her number. She is mentally deranged. Any mother that could speak those words to her son has to be deranged!

 

[tillybee]

My mother is weak! I have zero respect for her. Instead of being a mother she ignored the issues and carried on with her day to day life. So she didn't have the strength to do something about it and lives a lie everyday.

At least, although painful, my life is genuine and honest! And I would much rather be me, the black sheep with PTSD, than her in her fantasy world of 'perfect family'.

 

[Still waiting]

My mother is weak! I have zero respect for her. Instead of being a mother she ignored the issues and carried on with her day to day life. So she didn't have the strength to do something about it and lives a lie everyday.

At least, although painful, my life is genuine and honest! And I would much rather be me, the black sheep with PTSD, than her in her fantasy world of 'perfect family'.

Rock it girl! Thumbs upX2!!!!!!!!!! My family lives in denial and this is why I moved 2000 miles away. Ignorance is bliss but gets you no where!

 

[PureDogs]

Still waiting

I'm sorry that your family still in denial. That was not good at all.

It is pretty hard to have someone you love wouldn't be willing to understand.

My mom tries but needs to be educate some more because of not accurate approach such as do you get flashbacks? Did you get it yet?

 

[PureDogs]

Tillybee

Sorry to hear - it seem like they weren't willing work with you and your PTSD.

Sounds like your mom doesn't believe that you have PTSD?

 

[Miss_Understood]

I understand my biological family doesn't believe I have ptsd, they think it's just because I'm a lesbian.

My wife's family just doesn't understand and neither does she but at least they are there.

And this website is a great resource.

 

[Still waiting]

Yes but not as vivid as they use to be. I can recall one...it was like an old reel to reel film playing via the back of my forehead being projected while I was driving in my town. I had to pull over and remember where I was. I was totally lost. I don't get those any more. Instead I have a permanent ball in my stomach. I get sweaty, tense, hyper sensitive to my surroundings, and some times I don't want anyone to touch me. I have a lot of anger. I am fear my upcoming EMDR. Sometimes I daydream about going back around my family and telling them they are all mentally deficient, morally disturbed, and pathetic.

 

[PureDogs]

Miss_understood

Are you saying your family thinks it is because of what you have is the reason you are lesbian.

If yes, your family would need to be educated. How do your wife being there for you?

I've been gone with couple dates and I end up get hurt plus don't understand how or/and what I've been through.

 

[PureDogs]

Still waiting,

I do have lot of anger as well with trust issues.

Seem like I'm not only ones.

 

[Still waiting]

I understand my biological family doesn't believe I have ptsd, they think it's just because I'm a lesbian.

My wife's family just doesn't understand and neither does she but at least they are there.

And this website is a great resource.

Sorry for their ignorance. They will more than likely continue on this path. They need a revelation but with my experience; it would cost them to much to see things differently. They would have to acknowledge their fantasies and this would entail them coming alive. Look at it this way...your alive and awake while they are the walking dead, not us!!!!

 

[digger]

Is part of this process unblocking or accepting that thise memories are blocked? And to heal them what do we do?

For me it is both. I try to accept that I cannot remember and that I may never remember, even though that is frustrating and difficult and confusing. I do not wish to force memories though and am wary of trying to fill in gaps. In the process though there are memories that have been unblocked, but naturally.

As to healing - I'm not sure. I'm not there yet.