Blocked Memory

[Caza]

I've been in trauma therapy since February, now just starting on reliving the trauma and I have started to think about things from my child hood. My therapist says that it usually happens whilst in therapy and they usually have the same emotions.. i don't know y now this has come to mind because it's not at all linked to the trauma I'm in therapy for. But I can remember a little bit of being alone with a man whilst I was little but cannot remember any more. It's blank.. then I just remember the next day.. will my therapist want to dig deeper on this or will she leave it. I'm scared to go bk I don't know if I'm ready for this

 

[sun seeker]

I don't know whether your therapist will want to dig deeper, but you can always say no. In fact, therapy is a great place to practice saying no. If you don't think you can handle it yet, you may be right, and your therapist can help you with resourcing (finding sources of strength and emotional regulation) to get you to a place where you can handle the memories without losing it.

 

[Caza]

I've been in therapy for 6 months . My trauma is non sexual but have recently started to remember an incident from when I was little. I can only remember a little bit of it. Of a man touching me with his Penis. The rest is blank. I am now thinking of this more than the trauma I'm in therapy for. Is this usual for this to happen. I seem to have lost all emotion for the trauma I'm in therapy for. It now doesn't seem to bother me. I'm racking my brain trying to remember what happened when I was little.

 

[sun seeker]

So you sort of want to know and sort of don't? That's not unusual. Then there is sort of believing and sort of not, and that can go on for years. It's how our brains protect us, aggravating as it sometimes is.

I still say communicate with your therapist instead of worrying about what they will or won't push you into.

Is it usual for people to start therapy for one thing and then find there is more, do you mean? It is pretty common, yes.

 

[Caza]

Thankyou for ur reply.. u nailed it. Yes I sort of want to know but sort of dont. Is it usual that I am now only thinking about this new thing and my emotion is nothing for the original trauma.. my therapist is off this week so have to wait till next week and I'm desperate to get back .. my head is done in x