Littlebirdy44
Bronze Member
He knows he doesn't have a fighting chance but chooses to spend every ounce of his energy convincing others that he does. Saying to them that he's changed because it helps him heal the gaps where his self love should exist.
He is never happy with what he has and is always searching for something out of reach when in fact the real issues is his lack of self love and acceptance.
Somedays he is brutally aware of his toxicity and others he's completely obvious. Still it's easier for him to receive the love he desires from the opinions of others and will manipulate a conversation until he hears exactly what he wants.
Though it was unbearable to be raised by a man with such flaws, I simply cannot imagine living in a world like his. Both extremely guarded from acceptance yet isolated, in the dark and hiding from the truth.
My heart aches just knowing he's spent years trapped within this illness. My hope is only to guide him slowly towards the unconditional love that I myself never received. But at a safe distance where I can both guard my own heart while helping him heal his.
Trust me, I'm strongly aware that not everyone in a situation similar to this must follow this course of actions because it can be dangerous for victims of trauma.
However, I'm at a place where I trust myself and can see through his webs of lies. He's only human and it's okay to show a little grace sometimes. But never at the risk of your own self love.
- Just a Few Thoughts from an Adult Survivor of Childhood Emotional, Physical & Sexual Abuse
He is never happy with what he has and is always searching for something out of reach when in fact the real issues is his lack of self love and acceptance.
Somedays he is brutally aware of his toxicity and others he's completely obvious. Still it's easier for him to receive the love he desires from the opinions of others and will manipulate a conversation until he hears exactly what he wants.
Though it was unbearable to be raised by a man with such flaws, I simply cannot imagine living in a world like his. Both extremely guarded from acceptance yet isolated, in the dark and hiding from the truth.
My heart aches just knowing he's spent years trapped within this illness. My hope is only to guide him slowly towards the unconditional love that I myself never received. But at a safe distance where I can both guard my own heart while helping him heal his.
Trust me, I'm strongly aware that not everyone in a situation similar to this must follow this course of actions because it can be dangerous for victims of trauma.
However, I'm at a place where I trust myself and can see through his webs of lies. He's only human and it's okay to show a little grace sometimes. But never at the risk of your own self love.
- Just a Few Thoughts from an Adult Survivor of Childhood Emotional, Physical & Sexual Abuse
