Welcome Graven.
I hope you make good progress with your therapist. And as hard as it is, being cooped up inside isn't healthy. Even if it's around the house or just sitting on the porch, do so. Fresh air and sunshine is healing.
As others have said, you choose to do as you please here. I for one cannot read a lot of diaries. Sone topics I have to avoid. You are obviously in a very critical state so safety should be your utmost concern.