Relationship Boyfriend suddenly say he doesn't feel anything for me and his mind is blank as the void.

[Lanenadewillie]

Wow I wonder about this too... if is ok to go for love making would make it worse or would ease...

I mean when he ask for I won't start anything if he is distance

 

[Pinkcookie456]

I am experiencing strange changes in myself too. I hid our pictures so I never see them. I avoid seeing him on social media.

I wake up with a dull ache in my chest every morning. I am forgetting how it felt to be in love. I can't seem to feel much.

If I try too much I start pushing myself towards a panic attack. He texts in the evenings to talk about his day, I find myself smiling but sometimes I fake my emotions.

 

[7Cs]

My emotional feelings are those that I can feel naturally like anyone can.
My mental feelings are those that I know exist even when I go numb and can't actually feel anything.

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I experience this as well. When my emotions just go numb but I "know" I love my husband and my kids... even though there is no feeling to it. I know I want the best for them, that I don't want them hurt, that really if they were gone it WOULD be devastating. Just at the moment I don't feel it. I like the term mental feelings. I tried to explain this phenomenon to my last T and next thing you know she was making me take a personality test... probably to see if I was borderline... which I'm not.
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[Update]
It was almost like talking to a mechanical robot. (He said he felt very lost atm)

He start getting happier (or maybe I am being delusional again).

He didnt answer much aside that he couldn't think at all and his mind was jammed.

He used to call me that when we were in our initial stages of dating. I guess I felt alarmed.
He has poor memory and cant remember minute details but he seemingly remembered me ranting during our fight last time that he stopped calling me bubs and from then I knew he wasn't the same.

He started being affectionate that he was really touched by my gift etc. That he would think of me.

Soon he was getting frisky as well. I rebuffed him saying if he is emotionally numb..anything sexual is just a disaster waiting to happen.

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It really sounds like he's struggling with his sense of self right now (lots of emotional state switching!) and certainly would benefit from therapy. If it is too much for you, that would be understandable.

Emotional numbness can certainly come and go. Sometimes very rapidly.
Considering how much his moods have been changing I'm not surprised that at one point he felt frisky :)

My husband has learned to go with my "moods" and know that he is not the cause of them (most of the time). We've been together for about 15 years and for 13 of them I've been in therapy. For me it's been a long long road. I'm glad he felt I was worth it!

 

[7Cs]

Wow I wonder about this too... if is ok to go for love making would make it worse or would ease...

When I'm emotionally numb I am usually not in the mood - at all. I don't make a lot of eye contact and if I do it's likely to be kind of blank so to speak. If my husband tried to kiss me I will turn my head away, I shrug off touch or have absolutely no reaction to them. Sometimes I can be emotionally distant and still be in the mood or could be "put in" the mood. I'm more likely to make some eye contact might even try to smile reassuring " In this stage making love would probably be very grounding, make me more present and help me feel connected. If I acting loving and cuddly and seeking the contact then I'm probably all there for the moment even if I wasn't 15 minutes before :D

It could be different for guys though... or even different for other women.

 

[EveHarrington]

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I experience this as well. When my emotions just go numb b...

I wish more therapists were knowledgable about trauma effects. This isn't a personality disorder kind of thing. It's a "my system gets overwhelmed and shuts down" kind of thing. I liken it to more of an adaptation that most of society doesn't have. (Mental game, lol.) "Oh, you can get hurt? I can't! I'm so sorry you haven't developed the ability to shut off bad feelings....because I have, and sometimes it can be pretty darn awesome."

 

[Pinkcookie456]

Thank you everyone for your valuable insight. I have been really struggling with idea whether I should continue this relationship or not. I talked with my friends and everyone says I deserve better considering the toll it is taking on me. Tbh I even felt he might be using me for sexual gratification or something. But reading the comments here and my own intuition..I feel I just overthinking things.

I havent taken any drastic decision yet because I felt I needed more clarity. And yes his mental state improves when we spend together..I just hope it is worth it. I really don't want to give up on him. I'll keep updating as significant events occur :-)