Butterflies?

[Chaz Kindred]

You know that feeling you get Happy, Anxious, Scared or ETC. What if nothing you do with in reason but like speeding at 120mph or a roller coaster, or anxious about making your significant other happy about something you did that was really special or extremely scared got those feelings in your stomach anymore? How do you explain that? The meds blocking your emotions or your just emotionally numb forever?

 

[Tinyflame]

It could be both or either, except that I would add to the second if it is numbing it will not last forever. It may feel like forever, but it won't be.
And nothing 'bad' lasts forever.

This is going to sound strange, but sometimes I miss the 'totally numb' days.
You're already 'healing' if you want something else. It will be 'possible', too.

 

[Chaz Kindred]

It's extremely frustrating to me when I can't seem to find that feeling inside me anymore. I truely don't know where it went. Along with alot of things but oh well. I have this long battle ahead of me I know that much. I've only just scratched the surface of it.

 

[Tinyflame]

Dear Chaz, try to do small things for others you can- your wife and child, and learn and work on being present in the moment (such as grounding techniques, if you are familiar).

The thing about it is, when numbness ends it can be like 'Bam'- all of a sudden you're not numb, or all of a sudden things (thoughts) seem 'different'.
(Just my experience, anyway).
Keep going. :tup:

 

[Heather]

For me it's the meds. It has dulled my emotions...which is NOT a bad thing. I'm on a mood stabilizer and for the first time in years no mood swings. No outbursts. No craziness.

 

[Chaz Kindred]

I can't stand the fact that I am so emotionally numb. It simply has affected so much and now its growing to be a trigger of it's own.