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Can anyone remember a time when christmas was magical?

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I have been trying to think of a time when Christmas felt like a special day, rather than a flat, two-dimensional object. Or a balloon that's lost half of its air.

Christmas seems to be a time of nostalgia, an attempt to regain something that, in my life at least, never even was. I don't feel the sense of letdown anymore, perhaps because I've stopped looking for that perfect moment.

It's Christmas Eve and for the first time, I didn't bother to finish decorating or baking or anything else I would have done on December 1st. I can't bring myself to care. Or maybe I'm growing up...
 
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No worries on this, Mal you are fine. Your thread is very good.

This holiday season has had more magic in it for me than the last five years have. I think it is better because I wanted to create a special time for myself here and did only the things I needed and wanted. I think I am beginning to finally grow up too. Thank you for this thread.
 
I think there were times when my daughter was little that I love Christmas. I loved decorating and I would bake for weeks and give out baskets of homemade goodies to all of my family and friends. In the past 20 or so Yrs, I could care less. It’s just another day. I would work tomorrow, but I had to have a steroid injection in my hip on Friday and I’m in more pain than normal. So I decided to just relax till Tuesday.

IMO, it’s just another day, too expensive, too hurtful and way overrated.......
 
I have had good ones and bad ones too. And some oh so middle of the road ones. I'm in my mid-60s, so that would be expected.

There were a series of them for years when I was with hubby that I had to go to the in-laws house for the EVE. UGH! I hated that, because they hated ME.

There were some magical ones when I was a kid. I wrote about one of them in the HAPPY MEMORIES thread this week, so I will let you read about it there.

Today was a kind of magical day. I got a gift that is a picture frame. So what, right? Well, I have been doing some little
4 x 6" paintings and the frame is for 4 of them. The spots for the pictures are 4 x 6" and the person who gave it to me had NO idea that I was painting these or what size they were or anything. Now is that miraculous, or what?
 
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The forum from what I can tell, UN-capitalizes every word after the first, even if you capitalized it.


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Say to hell with the commercialism, the gift buying, the craziness.

Go volunteer on Christmas Day, doing something to bring cheer to those in short supply.

This is what I do.

It has given me a completely different sense of meaning and spirituality.

Last year was the first year I volunteered on Christmas Day.

It was HANDS DOWN, no competition, the best Christmas I ever had in my 30 some years.

I’m doing the same again this year.
 
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Well for starters I already decorated on Thanksgiving day here alone and experienced the best thanksgiving ever.

I especially got a little tree with extra lights and decorated it and am leaving the lights on all of the time until I take it all down and restore some normalcy back into my home. I am doing a gift eschange with a few people so I am amazed to have presents to unwrap under my tree

I have been estranged from my alcoholic/Borderline adult daughter for most of the past year and have lost contact with my two precious grandchildren as a result of her narcissistic rages.

This has been a particularly difficult year for me to live through. My husband of thirty six years passed away almost five years ago now and I have not been in the mood to celebrate any holidays all of that time until this year and knowing how much my husband loved decorations I know that he is proud of me for making the effort for myself alone.

I have not been doing very much driving and have been staying home doing crafting occasionally and have not done any shopping at all. I will have a crock pot dinner tomorrow which is Christmas day here so I will at least enjoy some good smells. I was going to make some fudge but have not gotten around to it and at this point really do not feel like doing it all.

I am burning candles when I have them and lighting incense. I have done a few select Christmas cards for the special people in my real life. I have been eating food and dealing with a huge trigger and am doing much better now. Basically I am just living a very simple life. I do want to get the decorations down soon as I am tiring of the excess finally.

I have enjoyed as I am able and grieved as I have been doing for the past year. I am not sorry I made the effort for myself as I am beginning to feel slightly depressed again. Thanks for asking. I hope you do get to go off by yourself sometime very soon to treat yourself because you deserve good things in your life.
 
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