Can Someone Tell Me What Is Going On?

[KP the nut]

((((Kaii))))

I'm so pleased you came through it. I was sending positive thoughts for you and the parents.

Take care and do something nice for yourself, you deserve it
Linking arms
KP

 

[deer_in_headlights]

Dear Kaii,

Sending you hugs, and a well-done, Sweetheart!

Your courage is remarkable.
I hope your meeting results in a very positive healing effect over time, for both you and her parents.
You're so brave, and I am very proud of you.

I hope you're taking very good, gentle nurturing care of yourself, today.
((((((((((Kaii))))))))))))))

With much love, and deep respect,
Deer

 

[Froggie]

Was gone for a few days and came back to see what happened. Like many mentionned here, I too am glad that you are going back into therapy. Have you specified that you need someone who has specialized with ptsd as this makes a big difference for the patient's outcome. The amnesia seems to be there. Just a question, was this about a year ago that you found the girl's body ? This could be a normal reaction to the anniversary of the incident. Hang in there (((Kaii)))

 

[ronin47]

I'm so happy you were able to gain some level of peace from meeting with her parents. You've shown such courage through all of this. You are Christ to that little girl and her family, taking on such a dreadful burden so she could be laid to rest and her family could have some closure. Thank you for your love and sacrifice for strangers.

What has happened with you memories is, in my humble and strictly unprofessional opinion based on my experience, your mind is trying to protect itself. You mentioned the pain and grief from the experience was snowballing as you continued to relive it, perhaps it snowballed to such a point that your mind decided it couldn't cope and tried to suppress the memories. This is not an uncommon experience with people who suffer from PTSD, stuffing all the memories down deep and numbing the emotions. I've heard, on more than one occasion, mother's talk about being told their children have died. They'll say that they recieved the message and then "I don't remember much after that." I'll never forget how the memories of being sexually abused started slowly creeping back to the surface of my mind after several weeks of counseling with my first truly effective T. Thankfully you are still able to cry and express yourself over it.

I can't even tell you how much I want to just reach through the computer and give you a huge hug. Sending love and prayers your way.