Can't Live Like This.

[lilstar]

It's the second time in less then two weeks that i've bumped into that murdering piece of scum.
I can't live like this, he make's my blood boil, and yesterday I couldn't keep it in. I made him aware of how I feel, good job I had someone there to hold me back, cause I just wanted to kill him.
I know I shouldn't of said anything but it's not right he should be locked up

 

[LSNP]

Wish I had more information.... but I will say that I wish I could let some of it out to my "him." I can't or I will be violating the No Contact order (against him, but it works both ways). There is so much anger I would like to release. I don't think it's a bad thing that you said something. I fantasize about my "him" on the ground, kicking his face in with steel-toed boots. He utterly destroyed my life in the name of "love." I understand your anger.

 

[lilstar]

This guy murdered by birth dad and is walking round like nothing happened, i'm soo pissed off. How is that right.

 

[LSNP]

My sister was murdered, too. They never really found the perp, but we think we know who it was and he has now died. No relief in that. She is still listed as an Unsolved Murder. Stumbled across her beautiful face online, one day. Burst into tears.

The justice system provides very little justice....... I understand the technicalities.... the WHY of the way things are... but sometimes we KNOW what is right and what is wrong and the justice system cannot do a thing about it because of legalize. It sucks.

 

[lilstar]

I'm sorry about your sister, and your right it totally sucks.

 

[LSNP]

Thanks, lilstar. She was another lost soul, involved in drugs and a wild lifestyle... I was awakened one night around 2:00 a.m. by the police. I cowered in the bedroom while my husband answered the door.... I knew she was dead. I didn't want to face it.

She was shot with a shotgun from behind and dumped alongside a riverbank. Hunters found her body days later.... the newspapers said her eyes were "white." Can't get that image out of my mind.

This happened about four weeks before my wedding and two weeks after I found out I was pregnant.

A lot of stress. But.... that was only the beginning, I guess. The divorce, the stalker....... that would come later.

Sigh.

 

[lilstar]

O gosh...

I don't know why i'm so angry to be honest, I never knew my birth dad I was just starting to look for him. I got his name three weeks before he was killed. He was stabed by his best mate over a can of beer, of all things.

 

[cherryblossom]

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Can I ask, how come, he never got locked up?

 

[lilstar]

They said it wasn't intended, so he got away with doing 7 months on remand. It sucks, you wouldn't pick up a knife if you didn't intend on hurting someone right?

 

[LSNP]

You are feeling the way you are because a) It wasn't right... and b) you were denied your right to closure with your birth father. I understand.

 

[lilstar]

Yeah kind of, it's like i'm missing what could of been.

 

[LSNP]

I think, ultimately, that's a major problem for all of us here. We are missing and mourning what could have been had the events that hurt us not taken place.

It is what it is. I try to tell myself that others have it so much worse... but it's my own pain I am dealing with, not theirs... and I hurt, too.