I guess I started to feel it coming on again tonight. I notice something, this time a small bump on the roof of my mouth, and suddenly I think I could have cancer, or AIDS or whatever - you name it. Google is not my friend.
I get really on edge and just notice every flipping thing that's going on in my body. Doesnt matter if it's normal, I think it's not. Then I feel like I cant breathe, and then I can't stop yawning.
Yeah, i feel tired now. But I'm fairly certain the constant yawning is from the panic. I feel like a gaping fish, lol.
I hate how when I get in this state I just start second guessing everything.. Like even the love of my SO. Whenever I start panicking, it's not obvious - I've learned to hide it to a degree - my SO just doesn't know how to comfort me sometimes. I understand it completely. Hardly anything gets through to me. But when he doesn't know what to say, it makes it so much worse...all the fear and worry just make me feel like more of a burden than anything else right now..
I get really on edge and just notice every flipping thing that's going on in my body. Doesnt matter if it's normal, I think it's not. Then I feel like I cant breathe, and then I can't stop yawning.
Yeah, i feel tired now. But I'm fairly certain the constant yawning is from the panic. I feel like a gaping fish, lol.
I hate how when I get in this state I just start second guessing everything.. Like even the love of my SO. Whenever I start panicking, it's not obvious - I've learned to hide it to a degree - my SO just doesn't know how to comfort me sometimes. I understand it completely. Hardly anything gets through to me. But when he doesn't know what to say, it makes it so much worse...all the fear and worry just make me feel like more of a burden than anything else right now..