Caution: Do Not Read If Struggling With Sense Of Purpose.

[JarHed]

It's simple Curt. When you meet someone new you introduce yourself. Who you are, where you're from what you do. You still haven't done that. We're vets here with PTSD, we don't trust easily and new people take a while to get used to. No one cares about your life story, we don't even know who you are yet. First you get to know someone then you ask things. Not a poll. And as far as relating to you, we don't know you or what it is you've done. Oh, and no one gives a rats ass what you use as a call name.

 

[HereticCurt]

I can't edit the original post, but in my second post I included the information requested. It'll get lost in the shuffle pretty quickly, so here it is all together:

My name is Curt Russell. I am 28 years old. I am from New Brunswick, Canada. I moved to the US (Arkansas) when I was 13. Joined the lovely Air Force in 2009. I spent my entire career at Keesler AFB, deployed to Joint Base Balad Iraq from autumn 2010 to summer 2011 as a part of the 332nd Expeditionary Security Forces Squadron as an inside/outside the wire augmentee. I am currently a member of the USAF, on my way out the door with a boot up my ass via MEB/PEB. I've been court-martialed for illegal use of a controlled substance in 2012, and was an alcoholic undergoing rehab during the same period. I've been locked up in the looney-bin twice, most recently this year after finding out about the MEB/PEB.

Added information: I have a wife and 7 month-old son. My wife is 4 months pregnant (not sure exactly, i get confused with the weeks/months talk the preggos do).

Additional Note: Now that I'm talking about me, it's probably best to bring up that although I'm quite patriotic, I despise the military structure. I have a seething hatred for certain people who routinely subjected me to abuse within the military. I can't tell you how many times I've had to bite my tongue to keep from biting theirs out. My diagnosis is Post Traumatic Stress Disorder with Psychotic Features. They're trying to work in schizophrenia or some kind of personality thing as a final diagnosis because of my writing. My wife's lawyer currently has a restraining order against me simply because of the tone that I used with her during a conversation on the phone.

@Kaishi - I get where you're coming from. I don't have a problem with speaking respectfully to people most of the time. I felt attacked from certain people though because I wasn't fitting their views of the norm. You won't find concrete evidence of that here in this thread, but the chat says it all. There is no card being played. And I do want to thank you and everyone who posted warmly for their warm welcomes.

 

[Grizzly]

Welcome Curt.

Do realize protocol was originally broken with your first post. As already pointed out by others. It may be difficult for some to take on some trust.

 

[Kaishi]

Curt, there's always the option to just not go into chat if it worsens your issues, be it loneliness or alienation or whichever. If some bars make me uncomfortable, I just make sure to find another one. Chat sorta works like it. Similar enough principle.

Heck, I'm not sure how I sound most of the time. Just acknowledging different uprising or group background makes differences works tho. Not matching tones ain't hostility. Don't know it's issues of 'the norm'. Worrying about that rarely works if there's first issues to face. Statistics can screw off. People without similar experience can screw off. You live your life, you deal your deals, this isn't 'bout conspiracies, and it ain't a social justice forum either. Not like it'd be mess of a topic, or people didn't care. It just ain't that kind of a forum.

Prose and writing's kinda for diaries and books and shit. Saying 'f*ck off here with that' isn't 'shut the f*ck up'. It's saying find different sandbox to play.

 

[HereticCurt]

Kaishi, thanks for putting it in a way that I can understand, and for helping me to see the blindness in myself was the same that I was accusing other of. I get it. Not sure where to go from here, guess I'll play it by ear. Can't say that you guys won't have to put up with my odd writing style though. ;) I'll just make sure that it gets into the right forum.

 

[HereticCurt]

Also, thanks @Grizzly for pointing that out as well, I have the same issues. I should know this shit.

 

[Spock]

Hey Curt, were you an SP?

 

[combatgoldfish]

I tend to avoid taking some stranger's pole. o_O

But welcome.

 

[SGT.Sunshine.]

Hey, "Curt Russell". Could have picked a better cover name, never liked his acting. Slow simple starts here is what I found work best. Welcome and just keep conversing, the more you do, the more that's "known" about you, the more comfy folks here may become. What was your primary job in the air force? Maybe you posted it and I over looked it, if so my apologies.

I passed through Balad in 2009 on medivac. Love watching fighters flying around. If only I was better educated, I could have gone AF and been a pilot.

 

[SGT.Sunshine.]

Oh and good one Cgoldfish lmfao...;)

 

[dutchiedelta]

CGF, how about a well known pole? Cracking me up man. :ROFLMAO:

Far be it from me to be unkind to a fellow vet in need. Tell me when there is one and I'll brew them a nice cuppa with a biccy.

 

[SteveMD]

Curt: I don't get it. My patriotism was done by the time I got the T-Shirt Kaisha mentioned. Lot of BS that always ends up with us in the bad places to make the talking heads happy. They're the Schizos, No?

I had digs in Balad in late 2007/early 2008 (out next to the Burn Pit), but never spent much time there---just outside the wire too much, or in the more entertaining parts of Salah ad Din (now Isis Land).

A DoS a-hole I worked around arrived to tell us that it was "Buh-Lahd," and was Arabic for Rice, just Balad Ruz (Red Rice). Actually, it is a contraction from "Istabalat," the stables---the Caravansarai where you traded horses for camels on your way along the Silk Road from Mosul through Diyala to Dharbandikan. Historical piles of Horsesh-t going back for centuries.

Welcome. Steve

PS: Ditch the poll. The emptiness is always SO MUCH better than the Bottomless Pit.