I've been trying to figure this out for a while, myself now. My brother used to call it the "I dare you game". I think him being 2 years older than me, he knew exactly what he was doing, but i was 9 and had no clue. I just thought since he was older that it must be okay.
But @Ragdoll Circus I feel the same way. That I don't know if it was considered sexual abuse because I didn't want to but he initially made me do it and then as it went on, i "asked for it", but I hated it the whole time, it never felt good and I always thought it was wrong. I even told him we could have sex, before I even knew what that was (we never did, thank goodness). But people say that children touching each others' parts is just because they're curious and it's just considered "child play". But do children also go down on each other? Finger and give handjobs and make each other cum? cuz personally, I was absolutely disgusted by that and I NEVER wanted that. I hate reading things saying my feelings aren't validated, but you're right, you don't need to put a label on it to still feel pain and numbness and shame and all the other fun things that come along with PTSD.
