Sufferer Childhood Abuse - Now I Have Ptsd

[sugarsparkle]

Hi everyone,
I'm new here. So I was just diagnosed with PTSD last Thursday. It comes from my childhood and my alcoholic father - he was violent with us. Almost exactly two years ago he committed suicide and I was one of the people who found his body 4 days after it happened. I am seeing a psychiatrist and a psychologist for treatment. On top of all of this, I have been married for 5 months and my husband has already moved out (he says it is temporary). The psychiatrist says that my husband says/does things that are triggers to my PTSD. My husband and I got in an argument and I completely lost it, started throwing things across the room, screaming, etc. He said it really scared him, and that he did not know this "person" who did these awful things. What scares me is that this "person" is a lot like my father was when he was violent with us. My husband and I are currently going to marriage counseling as well as individual counseling to work things out so we can be happy again. We both love each other very much, and are trying to be proactive with counseling.

Hopefully this wasn't too much for my intro, but these are the main issues. Maybe I can help someone in the same situation.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Hi and welcome to this site. There is alot of help and support here. I am sorry you have gne through so much. Take your time as you get comfortable and keep on sharing your story and get the poisonout.

I am glad you and your husband are in counseling together. I hope for the best for you. Take care.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum. :)

 

[Abrasky]

Welcome, I do a similar thing. Rages common in PTSD. My rages didn't start coming out until the 10th year of therapy.I generally yell and scream and swear in a quiet room to myself. I would bang my head. It did not feel like me doing it. It came from my trauma, my violent dad going into a rage.

It is truly awful to have to go through PTSD.

I have very little rages now, I recovered from them after 13 years of therapy. I had to get rid of them before I could work. I am working again.

Welcome to the forum.