Childhood with binge-drinking parents: hidden trauma

[Jewell]

my parents were both functioning alcoholics…bingeing on weekends and holidays to the point of stumbling drunk

They never hit me or my siblings
We all were well educated sent through college
I was led to believe and was told I had a wonderful family and maybe I did until I have flashbacks of what it was like
For example when I was 6 I nearly drowned in a river while all the adults were drinking…I was hysterical and nobody comforted me
I have been so dysregulated in my emotions and hyper vigilant ( waiting always for the show to drop)
Maybe others had it worse but it was BAD

 

[arfie]

Maybe others had it worse but it was BAD

comparing is a dangerous habit, at best. i often believe my childhood of child prostitution was easier than many of my sibs-in-healing who came from borderline dysfunction. my position on the empathy scale was quite clear.

fact is, jewell, you can gain fatal gangrene from a paper cut if you abuse/neglect it hard enough. pain exists to let us know something is wrong. don't compare. fix it.

 

[Jewell]

comparing is a dangerous habit, at best. i often believe my childhood of child prostitution was easier than many of my sibs-in-healing who came from borderline dysfunction. my position on the empathy scale was quite clear.

fact is, jewell, you can gain fatal gangrene from a paper cut if you abuse/neglect it hard enough. pain exists to let us know something is wrong. don't compare. fix it.

Thank you Arfie
I am working very hard to fix it

 

[arfie]

I am working very hard to fix it

"working very hard" is one of my psycho nag flags. it motivates me to take an inventory of my work-a-holic/control freak tendencies and? ? ? well? ? ? both symptoms are among my snottier snot knots. i'll spare you the gory details. suffice it to say that i break more than i fix when i am trying too hard.

learning how to trust and be still has proven the much harder work in my own case. i'd rather just do something than simply sit and be.

 

[Jewell]

"working very hard" is one of my psycho nag flags. it motivates me to take an inventory of my work-a-holic/control freak tendencies and? ? ? well? ? ? both symptoms are among my snottier snot knots. i'll spare you the gory details. suffice it to say that i break more than i fix when i am trying too hard.

learning how to trust and be still has proven the much harder work in my own case. i'd rather just do something than simply sit and be.

I’m quite the opposite
I feel at peace when I meditate and walk in nature
Doing too much overwhelms me