. I want to go through my Christmas stuff and only keep the things that make me happy
Screw Christmas... How awesome would the other 364 be if you didn’t live with this person, and the constant stress & stressors, anymore?I think I'd rather die than live like this, I'm 1/2 century old, isn't that enough of this grief, when there's no way out? Christmas time just makes it 1000x worse.
Thank you very much @VioletButterfly , I appreciate it.Sending along a prayer of comfort and protection as well.
I think I have, though I wasn't trying it just came to me, accurate or not.Is there anything that you can tap into right now that might refocus your thinking, if only for a brief time
I realized this too and agree, @scout , and will add below.I think Christmas can mean what ever we chose to make it mean. It can be nothing. It can be a reminder of every bad thing that ever happened, it can be an affirmation of whatever we believe is "Good" in the universe, it can be something else. I like the idea of actually deciding what I want it to mean.
This is so very kind @Gloria , and I the same to you.Sending hugs to all those who have trouble with Christmas.
Yes @InsertCoinsHere , so well said. For many of us here, and so many.I feel heart broken and full of grief.
You are most right of all @Friday , except that I can no more live with reneging on my word or financial commitments, than I can serving my own best interests. BUT (big because it's still a critical part of what came to me, and you are completely correct):I know there are logistical reasons why you do live with them, but those can be met in other ways, yes?