Kas_Can_Fly
Diamond Member
I went away a fortnight ago for just under a week, it was an amazingly positive experience so I should be happy right?
Since being back things have gone from being the best they have in years whilst away, to significantly worse than they were before I left. I feel that this is more than just a comedown from being in a better place for a number of reasons but that leaves me with a question; After positive experiences, why don't I just have a better outlook, why does something always have to come along and taint it?
It's like my head says, you've had a good thing and that's made you a little bit stronger so now I'm going to bombard you with stuff to remove the ability to cope you have developed, so that you'll be worse off than ever.
Does anyone else have this? Is it subconscious attention seeking or self sabotage? Is it a side effect of healing through positive experiences? Am I just being too hard on myself?
I had another question but I'm going to put it under a different thread for simplicity's sake.
Since being back things have gone from being the best they have in years whilst away, to significantly worse than they were before I left. I feel that this is more than just a comedown from being in a better place for a number of reasons but that leaves me with a question; After positive experiences, why don't I just have a better outlook, why does something always have to come along and taint it?
It's like my head says, you've had a good thing and that's made you a little bit stronger so now I'm going to bombard you with stuff to remove the ability to cope you have developed, so that you'll be worse off than ever.
Does anyone else have this? Is it subconscious attention seeking or self sabotage? Is it a side effect of healing through positive experiences? Am I just being too hard on myself?
I had another question but I'm going to put it under a different thread for simplicity's sake.
