Well I finally made it to the dentist today. I had 3 back teeth pulled with sedation but no nitrous oxide. I have a huge fear of the dentist and the suffocating feeling brought me back to my assault. I was able to stay calm, I squeezed a stress ball and I was in the chair for about 2 hours and I made it! I am a bit sore tonight and for some reason one area is still bleeding but I made it. I have to go back for three more in Nov and I am not as afraid at all. I finally conquered this fear! At least now I will be able to maintain the rest of my teeth and start caring about my dental health before it spreads to my front teeth which thankfully it has not. The fear just took over and the depression did too as I just did not care though I am suffering the consequences now. I am proud of myself that I made it there, I was booked to go two weeks ago and had to cancel as my anxiety got the best of me and I was vomitting before the appt and had to cancel. So...anyone if you are fearing the dentist..just know you can overcome it..I finally did!