Constant Anxiety Attack All Day

[mrsstreet0417]

Things are just not going great for me right now. My husband, daughter, and I just got back from vacation, and while I did enjoy it, it did not feel like it used to. I was anxious and down a lot even while on vacation and I didn't really expect that.

Now we are back home and my anxiety and depression are through the roof. We live with my mother-in-law and father-in-law because of not being able to work right now and not being on any benefits of any sort yet, and being around these people is just making it worse.

I am so anxious all of the time and even the xanax I took that my doctor told me to take when anxious is barely even helping. I just wish that I could snap my fingers and feel better, that would be so much easier!

 

[Kristoff]

Sounds like panic disorder. I had it when I was on the verge of failing out of college. Good luck!!

 

[franciemarnie]

I used to hate it when I'd go on vacations and feel so lousy I couldn't enjoy them at all.

I think one of the most powerful things I have ever done to create a sense of well being has been mindfulness meditation. It didn't seem to me before I tried it that it would do a bit of good. Doing regular focus on the breath type meditations just seemed to make me anxious. Part of that was that I didn't want to be alone with my thoughts. But that aspect of mindfulness meditation of becoming non judgmentally aware of sensation in my body from my toes to the top of my head ended up revolutionizing my life. I won't go on and on here how and why, but it has been fundamental to my recovery.

Meds took away symptoms but did nothing for the original wounds. Mindfulness was just one thing I did of many that helped, but it was huge in undermining anxiety.

I am hoping your today has moments of peace within. Sending healing thoughts.

 

[BloomInWinter]

Hang in there. You have a lot of stress on your place. The situations you have mentioned would be stressful and anxiety-provoking for even the healthiest psyche to deal with.

When stress is pushing our fear button all day long, it drives up our overall activation/arousal level. The stress hormones flood our systems and make it very difficult to have a true resting state.

There are many free meditations available via YouTube. When I was going through literally weeks of hyper-vigilance at a time, it was suggested to me by caring people and my therapist to take time to meditation, and to put that time as important as any life-saving medication.

I did, and I still do. It takes time for a hypervigilant nervous system to relax and give us true 'rest.' I now can just begin a meditation in my head, and at the beginning of it, I feel myself relaxing.

I did the 'every day for three weeks' of repetitive meditation, so it would become a habit. I'm so glad that I did that! It has made my symptoms MUCH more tolerant, no matter what is going on in my life. It doesn't cure the problems, but it does increase my inner resources and calm so I can deal with them more effectively.

Keep reading, sharing, and being gentle with yourself. You're doing a lot better than you realize.

 

[mamachick]

Sorry to say that I am right there with you with the anxiety, and the xanax hardly helps.

 

[ms spock]

It is hard to feel so stressed and trapped.

I have found mindfulness meditation helpful as well.

 

[Frida]

It seems like my vacations are spent with a higher state of anxiety level then at home. I don't know if that's a fear of the unknown. Not knowing what's going to happen next, or what but vacation is always high stress for me.

I think living with in-laws even if they were the nicest people, would cause stress and anxiety.

Maybe you could find a place to escape. Like going to the library. Or take a hot bath. Or if you have your own room you can put on some relaxing music and some headphones. When I go to the library I like to check out huge art books on different artists or other big picture books that I can just look at pictures when I'm stressed. I agree with BloomWinter about the meditation too, if you can find a quiet place to do that it could help.

I hope it gets better for you soon, you might try writing too.